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Year One - Month Six

by Kid Savage

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Day 151 00:31
下不见 看我们 爱我你 你我开 我们爱你 下不见 不见爱 看想要 我们出 我们出看你成哥 你的家去 网上爱你 我们的心 我们的心 帮我帮你 帮我帮你 我们去家 看你看你 看下你我你 你月你月你 看的日 北京的我们还 我需要你 请帮我 东西拱们在的朋友的家 帮我帮你帮我们 我们需要你们 给我们你们的脑 你的说什么 情妾我 你的夯实 我需要心天 给我你的想要 我看你在你的中心 被你的 被你的 你去在哪儿 我滚着你 在你的心你有你想要的朋友 我滚着你 琢磨,你们做 什么的朋友 我的彭在哪儿 你需要朋友给你你的想要 小宝 学生 老师 脚面 月小宝 月小宝 月小宝 月小宝 我需要你 你需要东西 我不要你的想要 给我我的,我的心 我需要,我的心 我需要水 我需要追缴 给我我的心 我大学上的热 我需要朋友 今天给我想要 小标,召见 不叫不见 不叫不见 酸辣汤 酸酸的 酸酸的 酸酸的 酸酸的 酸酸的心 先不见 简约雪娇
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Day 152 00:32
下不见 卡你以后 你去在哪儿 跟我你 我需要今天 我需要明天 我需要水 你需要什么 跟着你 根治你 以后朋友 以后朋友 看你什么听 我听你说什么 你下需要朋友 给我你的爱 我们去今天 出不见 出不见,你下 给我,给我 什么名字 你叫你有你 给我你的爱 你的的心 下不小 小不见 进酸辣汤 酸酸的冷 梦有空儿 中尼辛妮尔儿 我有你 你帮我 给我们 什么我们需要 给我们什么我们需要 我们需要爱和心 我帮 明天的 在哪儿 朋友你在哪儿 我需要你 帮你下 就免得 给我月 给我日 我而且 不但你 给我不但你 I once found a love letter Directed to me and no one else To try and convince me the path I walked upon Wasn't just my own In truth I did not believe you I'd seen you die How could you stand before me And wish that life was changed? There is blood on my hands and my hips collapse under my own words, The source of all pain in this universe, where does it stem from? Could we embark into the night sky, and find what ails us, What ails us in the dark nights? I want to believe in you, But who are you To me anymore, When will you spend more time with me, Set me free, Let me breathe on my own, Without your diseases, You spread the plagues, Your name, Is inherited from slaves, They pass it down, To set them free, You have to see, Who you are, Inside darkness, Save yourself and your chemical induction to life We have your back if you have mine The multi faceted dream we walk through Has held only me and never you, And I am sorry for that, truly if you could stand where I stand, I would give you my self centered life But I can't, So I won't, You can't, So don't take life from me I will never try to take the breathe away from you, You give in to me, I never understand why you listen to me, I am a dead man walking through his own head, just leave me be The shadows we watch, Watch us back, We wander through time like life was meant to be had alone, But still you remain, even with my eyes closed Something has changed here, Have I begun to grow, Has my life changed, for the better or worse? When will I know? I was once a man, Who could never see himself, But here I stand, Directly before you Admire me, Let me be, A man, For once in my life Let me speak, Let me spin, Let me grind my hands against time, To feel the wall directly between you and me The bubble I breathe, Is directly my own, Let me be, Inside my life, Don't let me sleep, Through all of life, Give me a chance to be more, Never let me fall, Never let me fall, Never hold my hand, Don't push me off the edge, I'll find you, I swear to god I'll find you, The infinite expanse of time, I'll find you, And when we smile I'll move directly through you, To see the life right behind where you stand, And hold it in my hands, The life you create for me is coming close Just let me breathe, Just let me be, Hold onto faith, Examine your fate, and breathe again
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Day 152b 00:31
下布甲尼晚安 给我你的心 我需要你的那个 任你邮你 三四个去你 热锅有你 看我的朋友 看我的朋友 我需要你 给我的们 你这只猫 你这是毛 我会看你 你不好请 你不好你 给我你的心 给我你 给你的信 女人们 女人们 维兹维兹你 你的朋友在哪里 说不见 说不见 图书馆你的人 给我的你 你的什么 葡萄听 酸辣汤 你叫不见 我的心 我的心在哪里 I'm starting to begin To unravel everything you see Closing in in Into the truth you seek That time is illuminated here What more could you need here? We move bricks, Of fascists We block your roads, We break your homes and tear them down, We build overtop of your lives We move directly to the end of your life Soon you cower in fear The hatred you feel Is illuminated by your own fears But they aren't real anymore What more could you want inside of this world? The slowest progression is moving us toward life Don't let me in, Don't let me take life into my own hands I'll throw it away, I swear to god, To run off the cliffs with no regard to you, Just let me move fear, The way that fear moves me, I'm using words, In evil ways, The ways, You told me to avoid Deception in perception is beginning to insinuate That something is changing here The cause of fear is drugs and the chemicals Inside the air, the chemical trail that follows you You intoxicate us, With the cage you made us, We love institutions We move a mountain, with institutions This bio-machine, we call society, Is starting to rise, and form a life, You cannot kill what is not yours anymore, The power in one man, is starting to leave our side The power of man, has left my mind, Cuz what could I do, To stop inevitable destruction, But to spend my time destroying you To cover the page, with the fear you instill in me, To cover the page, with all of my misery, This sweet sound, is starting to begin again, The memories start to build upon themselves again We move mountains with the words we say, We move through cob web infested caves, Life was once here, And will soon return again We move through this cave, The moment is now, The light fixtures in the clouds, Begin to vibrate with anticipation The nation participates in a purge again, The radical sides on both sides, My insides, turn tail and run, But my bones are steady, steady to the core There will never come a day When I swallow death Embrace the darkness The signs of the end I see what you sell At the end of the tunnel You try to entice me to end it all But you had one chance and the day is gone You should have killed me when you had a chance You can never raise a hand to me again This arrogance you wear is starting to wear thin, The time is nigh, to live a life, for all of time I'll see you there, Walking for a moment, And turning back, To see where you are How far you have come This moment is yours I applaud you in life This life is yours Spend it how you want to Just never take a life Just never take life in To your own hands Till the day That someone kills again Will you see The fear in me start to rise again This day has come once more The day when I shine a light This aperture And capture your evil And preserve you forever Only you can change Only you can save yourself From the hell you create You walk this earth You masochist machine You take life And enslave the best of me This bird in the cave Is suffocating under the toxic air you breathe The hatred you spill out of your lungs Is starting to feel like disease You try to decipher What god above has left you In truth the only thing he left you Is inside of you You are the fear of change The fear of life The fear of everything To get to the other side Before you even know where you are You want to escape this life Before you understand what life is You give in, before you begin Where do you go when you feel? Who do you seek out to tell you how to feel? Tell me, show me, what they know, What have they said? What have others said, to draw you in? The tunnel ends with you, The first one in, is the last one out, And I'm not done, so get me out Move me to the core of your heart, Let me see your vena cava and breathe you in Your life, isn't mine anymore Go forth and live your own life, separate from mine
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Day 153 00:33
小不仅 给我 我需要你 帮我 看我成呢 跟你 我们在 我们在爱 我们去月 跟没人 给我的行 给我前面 我跟着你 跟着你加不见 看我 看你 小我不 听起来不才 都在东西 北南东西吗 你会帮我吗 我需要你 你的帮 我的心在睡 我的脑也在水 帮我跟你 酸辣汤 酸酸的冷 我跟着你 在今天 在明天 都 小我看你 给我的你 你的心你 图书馆你有 有你 你有你 在你的后面 后面你在哪儿 请你给我 东西吃 我需要东西 帮你 帮我 我去在今天面 我觉得你 你的鞋子 小你给我你的孩子 被客气 说什么 你的帮的医生 我需要 你医生 给我你想要 所以我也会有 我需要你 给我时间 看我的心 在时间 在你的加 是你 是你在你的心 帮我帮你 I started Moments ago I built a wall between us So that you would know The price of every mistake Had already faded away We live life for the first time Not as slaves Not as gods But as men Waiting Waiting to find ourselves again We moved oceans We wanted to see what could be When we complete When our mind finally sealed us in So that we could really see who we were within I trace chemicals I ingest them I forget them I move pass this moment But it takes time The effort I spend In every word Inside of every line This concerted This effort isn't mine Not alone I'm never alone Inside a mountain Is a cave I tried once to count every passage The slow moving moments Through trauma and through fear Eventually time will show The memories disappeared Just give me time And I will always hold life Just give me time to be alone I will move mountains I will sing your name I will create oceans Of the emotion within my veins Just give me time This slow pulse of life Has moved me before But now I move it My mind catches up to you Sometimes I go too fast Sometimes I'm the last We cower in the dark This light in the spark These seconds count more than any hour These seconds last longer than any hour I feel the tar against my lungs Something inside Desired to be fumigated The chemicals inside How can I turn again How could I reveal Who is really deep within? My soul isn't your, My life and my time, This life isn't your You know who you are, You look just like me, You feel just like me, That time collapses underneath of us, That we can't do everything, In truth I just want to walk, And see every single thing, To remember the sound of your laughter, To bypass the civil war that's approaching, To ignore the cries for war, To attend to life and only life again, To love and forgive, To stand with friends, With no concern, Of the days that pass, The time that settles on our paths, We walk forever more, Trying to laugh, In the face of life In the face of death We spin around in circles I speak to machines I record every word How many eons pass inside this day The many changes The details of my pain The anguish you scream Inside of silence It's inside of silence, Cuz no one can hear you, When you don't speak, But how can you speak, Around those who instill fear in you? I want to scroll the page up, And think of better thoughts, And return to the days, Where I thought I was better off, Living with friends, Singing in tongues, Speaking in words, Just having fun, Living inside, Watching the world, Slowly burn alive, We sing of the end, In truth we'll never see, This is just the beginning, Eternity is something different for me, I'll stay here, I want to remain here, Don't let me leave, Enslave me to your throat, Teach me the soft sounds you know, Hold me when I am sad, Kiss me, when I kiss you back, Smile that life is here, Never far and never near, Still we always hold on, I laugh with you, I scream with you, We stare into the sun, We stare into the sun, We're blind now But still we feel alive now We don't know who we are I've lost hope before It wasn't where I want to be, So I'm farther now, I push that day inside my mind, The day I lost my life, To your control, And I speak to you the world, the society that surrounded me, The culture and the way you speak, You can't see the end, When all you do is speak, The slow moving pulse of our fears, Guides us through the dark and our years, Take me farther from here, Hold my hand as we fall through land, My feet are destroyed, A cripple is born here, Inside of my heart, Inside of my fears, Of the words that you say When I am dead, What words will you choose to say? Will you stop, And listen to me, Speaking to you from inside of my grave? How can I pierce the dark? You surround yourself with the dark, Hold yourself, against all of time, Your fear, isn't mine, My fears, shatter my life, I cannot indulge in yours, I wish I could, I wish I hear you, Scream through the darkness, I will find you, Lost in the echoes Of your own mind
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Day 154 00:42
说不见 你有什么 给我你 什么你说你 我给你填的吗 朋友什么 你有什么 帮我 给我你 我说你信 我说你西 给我你心 看我看你 长长的碰你 我需要我 给我你 说你有 要不见 需要你有你 被我你 给我你 你的心 我爱有你 我爱油田的你 跟着你 跟着你 取药 取药 朋友在你 给我的你 看你 看你 你需要 有你 给我的脑 给我你 我需要你 去取长 公共你 你去哪儿 跟我你 你跟说 去点 你有你 给我你 说不见 说不见 小部件 你被我 给我你的心 看我看你 看你的说尽 你不点你 给我你 被我你 我说你 要是你所以 被我 安你得去 年你说你 给我你 我你月 你有你 我们你月 I want to break away the lines that stand between you and me In time I wanna pray about the time you tried to kill me Until that day I walk alone without you inside of my life I wander if you survived deep through the dark nights What have you lost along the way? What did you throw over board To keep your ship afloat? Was it values you valued? Did you lose sight of life? Do you remember the outline of your soul? Do you remember the purpose you gave yourself on this earth? Do you still trace yourself with lines? Have you remembered the greatest detail? Have you transformed? Are you something more? The days blur in, the nights give out, What we were before, The summer is living inside my lungs, To escape the cold nights of winter, I feel ill, The bacteria inside of me, Move and groove to the pain of my nerves, We transform, from life into life, We never die, We give life to life, We have become, the walking earth, The moss in my ears, Begins to hear, And recognize that life, Is alive despite our ears, And what we hear, Isn't everything we see, The evil your words, Returns like a flood, The darkness in your tongue, Washes over every word, You taint life, You destroy all of culture, You perceive in only evil eyes, You see the worst in mankind, And there is nothing else for you, Only death will save you, Only death will hug in the coldness of your dark nights, There is revenge hanging in the air, Dangling from a tree above your house, Deep in the sky, is your life, Hanging from me, hanging with me, On our land, Deep in the sky Is your hands Washing me With my own fears, I return to a baseline life, To return my sight to myself and no one else Move me, Turn me into a fiend, Destroy my home, Destroy my hope, Just me hope to grow, Give me a future, Give me a life, To call my own, Just give me air to breathe
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Day 154b 00:25
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Day 154c 00:34
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Day 154d 00:31
Inside of sleep We rest our eyes And find peace The pieces of myself That I give to you You find them in your hands You wash your hands of me The germ that I am The words that I say Terrible and loud I am When you sit in silence The silence That we share You count your fears Inside your tongue You close your mouth And never tell anyone Who you are Underneath the surface You hide away Everything within your skin You begin to burn And feel alone No one Is there to help you anymore Where do you go When you are alone What do you say To convince those that see you That you are alive That you are well You are fine You just need their help Speak to me Try to scream Help me breathe I can't see Myself Inside this darkness Show me the life I cannot live Help me see you Standing through darkness I feel the rhythms That guide us home Everyday is something more Than the last one before The feeling Of this quest unfolding Our party Moves through the land We find the band That stole our hearts We had ourselves Just to blame For every wrong doing We had seen Who am I but the light Casted upon the darkness That we all emit We are lost Who is left to see us Inside our emptiness You don't speak to me anymore But I swear I still exist Without you I cannot see You know your self Better than I do The emotion in our throat Is starting To auto-synthesize itself You trace the live Of those before you The greatness that has Arrived before you Starts to walk Through every word You distance yourself From me again You cannot see who you are anymore So you turn to me But I have no answers All that I have Is a moment away From the terrors you face The monsters outside of you Growing larger everyday The fear they instill The fear they instill They drive you closer To the edge You grab a knife To defend yourself You walk along the walls Inside the darkness You hide yourself You hear their screams Echo through the halls Crying out Who will save us now We want to destroy everything That we have We will take your life just to prove what we have Control over you You are stuck in paralysis You can go nowhere after this The taste of freedom Is starting to fade But it's still in my veins I will climb and crawl my way through I will l hold myself When no one else is here I will be the one to define myself No one, can tell who I am You haven't seen where I've been Nor can I see where you have gone I suppose we both persist Without each other We go through life We go through this life Without fear You take the worst in me And throw it all away Take me through this pain And every word I've said Just let me go Just let me know who I am The burns on my hands have had enough The soreness in my legs has crippled me Still I walk Still I put my hands inside the fire of your heart What do you want From who I am What could I offer you What could I see That you don't know What words What worth Do I hold A simple man With no worth Is all I am I see it in your words The words you say to me Have all but burnt inside I see the hatred you hold I must run away from you There is nowhere else to go From here I choose to go through darkened roads In hopes that one day I will find you alone And help you find your way To sit with you when you are healing And talk the days away In truth I am so far from there I am only beginning
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Day 155 00:45
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Day 156 00:34
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Day 157 00:36
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Day 158 00:31
A mind is loosened now To accept every sound Despite where it comes from To hear every word inside the universe We change the tunes That we exhume We change every word That we use There is something more We choose to ignore What we were When we were born We move through The ice in your hands Melts through your hands I hold your hands Who are you To the night sky To the dark gods Inside of your mind Who are you When time fades away Who are you Today Your mind is faded Your soul is jaded You cannot perceive me For who I am You are lost Can never be found Can never be seen By sightless sounds You move in an ocean wave Against all we've saved You choose death over life You take lights and burn it all away You were once my friend But your high Is one that no man can comprehend I'm on my head You begin to spin me Through this web I've lost all time to you You take control of me The toxoplasmosis inside your feet Drags through me through every word You try to speak but cannot be heard You are lost inside This coma of your heart This coma in your mind Confusion wears you Inside and out I watch you watch me We see eyes We can't breathe here There's no where to go from here To continue down this darkened path To explore every word We've written down These darkened poems Inside my hands Is a pen made of you Made of thee Made for you When do you spend out your life In face of the life That we have yet to spin Trace me inside I hate the things I begin to say I want to change everything But I don't know where to begin How do I create a train How do I spend my time Without you in my life And be alright And just survive for a time While I move through you Wait without you Posses your mind with The thoughts you spread through mine Your words Create wars Destroy worlds Take lives Take my own word And perceive the end inside You watch the edge Of your life Wither into the darkened nights Without you inside Wait for me Just to breathe Without perfection is there anything that I could be Could I be a man And wander the earth With no plans at all No plans to escape this earth To escape this hell To enable a massive tribunal of wars to conquer me The man inside of me is desperate to be
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Day 158b 00:27
I live with people filled with hatred And they transfer it into me All I feel is their anger I want to destroy everything To escape from this moment I'm in To remove myself from reality To never face adrenaline To know who I am Without interference Their contentment with the end Of their own lives Why do they want mine? I move against the trees The shadow hide me I want to be somewhere else But I am a slave here I have nowhere to go Time is becoming dense here A blackhole begins to form Inside my parents mind But they don't care They don't hear themselves The terror they spread Through the air They truly don't care They would destroy everything if they could But they have no power Power over what is inside of me I feel the distance Between me and everything that surrounds me I am cautious to move To face the world around me I have everything to lose now I wait for a moment to see the edge I feel the gasses moving slowly My skin feels warm in this cold air I am barren and alone With nowhere to go A home filled with hatred A tyrant with no nation I see prophesies slowly fade Into the edge of my dreams and my sleep But I still don't care For what you say or what I hear anymore A mouth filled with daggers Stares through me With no consideration of the life that I live I am swore to those that I love, that I'd be different And I am, I feel pain in every word I say, When I am inside of your presence You don't see life anymore, it's in your eyes You seek you cling to death now, And I don't ever want to see you return again Just let me go, And be on my own again Let me drift through the night skies Let me face this paranoia you gave to me And sing gentle songs to put myself to sleep Just let me breathe I needed life more than life was ready to give I felt the edge of the world descend upon me I saw the edge of the world collapsing around me I'm on my knees, trying to scream Into the distant air, Can you hear me here? I move an army, juxtaposed against the wind, Let me march my men, through these lands Let us return to our homes, Somewhere for us to call our own, We never meant to displace you, Nor invade you, nor dominate you I'm sorry and terrified, Of what I am, and who's inside, The terror of my past life, Passes me by What could I do with you, Except expose the words you say, In time I'll replay them for you, And show you who you are I'm not here to judge you, Only help you see who you are, The scars, on your skin, are deeper, Than you could comprehend Let me digitize your life, Sort through every word you've said, Sort through all your ends, Inside of your mind We go to the edge of our lives, With no fear in sight, That's all I want, To live without fear forevermore Is that too deep a dream, To never face the death of you, Nor for you to see me, Wither into the dirt, I am your son I am the nothingness that surrounds you now, This loneliness, this barrenness, Is only yours now I tried to warn you, That time was shifting away, Pulling me farther into a distant dream, I'm sorry to say, No nazis will be here to stay, You'll slowly dissapear, And swallow yourself inside of fear, What could I say to save you, from your own thoughts The darkness, Haunts us, Watches us grow old, Waits for us to take turns growing cold, But I never will, I've been there before, I've seen an open-closed casket, With my name on the epitaph You tell me To watch myself, and never approach the edge, But you don't see yourself, You're directly on the edge You look to me, You tell me to watch closely, As you ran, Into the abyss below you So much time has passed, That I don't even remember, The way the air moved, Brushed pass my face I don't remember the smell, I the night before, I set my guitar out, I wanted to destroy it all, To ripple out into the universe a sound you all could hear A sound, that represented, Everything that I felt till that day, But I never did it, I ran instead Into the abyss below you, I couldn't wait, I wouldn't wait, For you A thousand miles separated me and you, You told me to go my own way, But I don't ever know who you are, Who was I? Where did I find the strength, To run into the dark all on my own? The vibrant lights when I close eyes Remind me of home I twist and fade away I try to change But I can't I suppose I won't I'm tired of fighting Of speaking Of conversing With those who cannot hear When will you listen When will you help yourself hear I cannot be your god I cannot hold you any longer than I have been
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Day 159 00:34
说你 给你 补你 以爱 要捕捉 卓尼你 给我 由得你 不看看你 店面是 联系得 扑咬起 有你 说你 我的剑 由智利 文伟 应为揍你 内你 位子 为自行 小不大 打球你 有你 被我子 桌子 给我的 柚子 联系的你要 给我 喝的我闹 说你 娶你 六月 女日 给自 字的一的一的 有做你 娶你 我的揍你 有的有你 布套皮 揍你 绿泥 周不见 给你 东西吗 东西吗 为你有你 你有的心你 普药 要你自 给我的新的因 雷沃 在你的家 我去 备案去 你走你有 昨天 去月 跟你 跟鱼 吃你 吃你 I once spit a fire Made of stones To save my throat The temples underneath the ground Collapsed under me I feel through the earth With no time I left, I levitated out I ran away into the night from you came I let every doubt inside of my head go I followed the path you still resist The love inside will always persist I burn an emblem Through the fire in your heart I scarify the tissue that surrounds your mind You never listen The persistent motion that follows you You insist life is something worse than it is I never listen to the dead inside of your throat This slow repeating message you left a million years ago Where are you now What do you see now Do you remember the past We created so much more Than anyone else It truly mattered then I fall out of heaven With no contemplation of the ground that slowly approaches me I catch the fire and flames along my skin Down below the surface is an ocean waiting for me to swim I dive right in I swallow the air for the last time I smile no more A hollow husk that surrounds the floor You crawl through my mind To burrow deeper You take all I am And throw it into a jar I'm never enough I wait for your words In truth I don't know why I know you are a liar I cannot perceive the best in you You burnt it all away Save me from you Let me sleep inside The silence of a mind That doesn't feel you You twist inside of you You shake the willow tree Uproot the home we sleep inside Take every branch and push it farther inside Watch the seeds fall away with you You cannot breathe alone You run away with hope That time is nothing at all We hope we pray that we never grow old at all To lose all we are To gain the other heart that we hold We would destroy everything To follow our minds Through darkened tunnels of light We run through our lives We breathe To slow down our minds We race through life In truth there is no other side So stay with me Grow with me Let's never lose sight of life Stay with me Stay with me my friend Hold on tomorrow is in our hands Hold on and watch Who you are
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Day 160 00:30
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Day 161 00:37
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Day 162 00:31
就你呢 给我的你的心 去我在年 在这个 男人 你需要你 要你有你 给我你的心 你要五你没有 你有你有你 被我你 下上你 今天 太多了 帮我 帮我 喔尼 说你 所致 说子的皮 葡萄 酸酸的 云 在这个五儿子 沃去工做呢 我闷你闷 扑咬你 说你的两栖 两个呢 吧呢 吗你 我你 年的 酸酸的 在去年 给我的爸爸的唱歌 我需要皮子 去你我爸爸的 要你说你 给的你 疗效你有 律师在我的外国 我去阴图 鱼说爱按个案 是明名你有 给我你 葡萄你的们的多 帮你 图书馆 在中国成 国在哪儿 在谁 我们天的号码 我去 给我的脑问你有你 我们去 在网上 我们去 在月 被我的天马 女比你 去你 给我的信 你没有心 I deep inside my mind Try to hear new sounds That I did not hear when I was born The terror in my mind What if I am torn Between new worlds and my own How would I survive myself Could I look pass the words that I say To the mirror inside my eyes What words are there to say How can I look pass the glass That rests inside this frame How can I see more Than what is here Than what is real To formulate a plan To escape the hatred in your hands As fast as I can I begin to run Through the snow Into the sands Where you will never follow me Glaze over where I stand I know you want to destroy us where we stand So we move To higher ground We wait for you To make a sound That is not your own You mistake yourself for a god You claim to thrones that don't exist There is no right Or mandate for you to cling to To declare you anyone body else's god You are nothing at all A momentary glitch in the system A twitch a twerking of a system That is pulsing, it's moving Freezing cold rain washes over me
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Day 162b 00:41
I wander through you The land you see Isn't always in me We want to decide How to sing the songs of our world That we live in How do we decimate the words we use The words we say to use The inner emotion of our eyes and our lives I want to know The atonal mode of your mind How do you know When you say what is right Does your soul glow When you lift up your eyes See me wait with you Take time to bereave the best of me I've lost you through time This solemn moment of words That we use in the moment of time The part of my life That has lost all meaning Is starting to survive Is starting to ignite The past has pass me by I remember every word in my life With time With time Build up machines in our eyes Claim to become Mortal men with phones inside of our head We are more phone than men We are guided to the edge Our souls are giving in Our eyes are lifted Green shifted noise We move through you With no sense of noise We cannot hear your english words We know nothing of the customs you accustom to You are so violently different You are so violently lost Where are you When are you to finally return Walk this road Cast in stone The appeal In courts Lost Still you cling to what you haven't lost You watch yourself cling to the ropes Around your hands Who do I speak for Who do I sing for It isn't me I see that this path Is a path to war But how could you ignore The writing on the wall Words pass through chambers What do they mean inside your heart Do you impart the best of you in me When last we spoke I couldn't breathe with you near me I ran through the high and my mind To get away from you I cannot see myself and my calm around you You terrorize My entire life I was waiting for you To move through a mountain With no hope of changing As you climbed up a mountain You found yourself falling through me You couldn't find solid ground You lost all there was to me You shattered my bones on the ground You threw me, through you No one could survive The toxic cloud inside of your mind One man, is not all men Hatred for one man, does not stem from all of his kin We stand on solid ground again I see the generalized part of your mind Do you see the one in mine The part of us that speaks Where do thoughts stem from when we speak How do I collectivize my thoughts and feelings To outline what I am Is to see what I am A man with fear With everything to lose Deep inside abuse Of your own love You don't hold us The way you promised Where are you
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Day 163 00:30
Before I lost a bet I wagered my life Inside of the cold I faced the demons within you Still I grow older I wait for your return to this earth To walk with me forever I will keep the center of my heart warm Till the day that we talk I hold myself alive till then I will hold on Till life begins You will know me When I know who you are We will sing of times That we spent apart And now I am alone Spending time by myself Decompressing myself Spending life inside of my own love I listen I walk To stand with you We record every syllable we say now I am indebted to the future of you now You wait with me To spend time alone You walk with me When we have nowhere to go
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Day 164 00:34
I wanted you to know how sincere I felt I ripped apart my soul to save myself I wanted to feel every word that you said Still I fall short of knowing everything in your head I ask you questions of your life and where have you been I don't want to care enough to give in To become who you are, Fixated on your words and your heart I only want to know if you are all right Soft enough to feel life To feel the hardness Inside this darkness Fade away with every word we share We return to life in the face of death Why is this so Why is complications all we need to know To unfold our lives To go through darkness to get to life The weight of this world is on my shoulders no more I walk free through this home With no concern of who you are anymore I've found myself inside The outside is too cold for me to bare I move mountains without any words I show you who you are again You show me the best of life again We are mutual We embark On this journey with one another We shatter the darkness inside of our hearts again We defeat the cancers We cancel those who speak from greed We socialize inside of ourselves We disassemble the worst inside of ourselves We no longer resemble the machines we worship We return to the glass of our homes We buried the stones underneath the grass We overturned the green inside We buried the worst of us inside We couldn't choose another life If I didn't know any better Then I would be lost in life But I cling to the trust of others No one I meet is wrong anymore No one is regrettable in the choices they've made Every action has brought them to where they stand today The past creates us now Who I am is a combination of my past doubts Confronting who I was Learning to live Living to love Loving to learn who you are I see the end game The end goals Keep getting pushed back I never want to end this game we walk through I stopped running through I've seen my days I've lived my life I slow down my thrusters I burn through life Slow and steady as she goes I take this wheel inside my hand I turn it with a smile on my face again I see the stars above me Against the darkness of night sky The life I perceive has stopped being lonely I have seen entire lives I spend myself With hope to give I've begged my whole life Now it is time to get up I'm done giving in To the words that you share Of death and the end I will never come close To dying again There is no where to go when you are dead I'll walk this earth Till tomorrow begins again
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Day 165 00:35
不你见你做你显得你。给我的你按钮与你云元黁乱妮子铺子。说子的冷的十年。 你是说大小你做年的。扑咬你赵鲁普要。两天蒂尼定的尿素。说你俩你,扑咬你爹天气。普药说了你。算地猛地小的消失。校学习,铺地扑算的。内月色的梦的冷的。给说呢的量气泵呢。小部件的,大小你算你到的。扑咬你的学期冷呢。你累围在引得闹得。给我小布先帝读到了。普尼普药什么。算连德普要素要引蝶嗯呢吗。酸酸的。 给我你得闲的是的了。就找应为呢。泵冷去因闹得。要印的悬案的冷吹。看你不要你迎来月不觉。再见部内额冷不的声线呢。 与要素报的应为要。你去在组的宝宝。 Time shifts back into the storm We trace the hour hands as they drift Our minds begin to slip into decay From whence we came We move oceans to breathe We create life to infect disease We take control of death The parasite refused to die This man is mine You embolden yourself You claim the snake inside is yourself The monkey drifts through you You do as you do Claim to be new In truth you are the same The path you choose You cannot lose You feel only here and now The best part of you is here and now So far away from those who love you You don't feel the same Don't be surprised to find That those who follow you Don't love you too They trace their paths Just to find them the same We walk down lines that have been We walk down paths that existed before we came here They remain here long after we lay our own claim The rising sun doesn't feel the same We lost our way into the sun once before We flew too close to the flames We lost our agent of will We started to decay Against the sky Inside the nights We spent on our own We tried to spend our nights alone I hope you care enough to try to prove you are still alive To those who see you wander through this mortal plane They know you've changed They see the change in you You watch you run through life with a smile on your face With no regard for words anymore The fragments we say are gone This paraphrased sentence Is starting to turn to a page And once you create a page a book starts to follow And enter this space we claim For we will never die We walk this earth We started with nothing and still we go We claim to stars that hold our throats If we hold all the power here How do we let go of all we are We start to become something more than we conceived Are we prepared to become the leaders this world needs Not now but so soon our parents relax They turn and twist into something new with no chance to relapse We move in an ocean with no concern with life at all
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Day 165b 00:45
The empathy of living death The words we use to embalm ourselves In the face the face the face of reigning over us We move through stone fields mining our way through We take that which we used to know Let go of nothing Hold on for your life Watch the snow fall against the sand The outside reflects on the inside Casting doubt on sides We can't see inside anymore The darkness prevailed Locked the doors We don't want back in anymore We move an ocean of apathy back into the storm We take all we used to be The dirt the grime We hide against the sounds That our fathers told us were evil The words we use to describe evil The outline of cultures you have never seen Never lived You walk through this life Trying to conquer all those who surround you It's time to give in and start to listen To those who cannot be heard in this system The disenfranchised March in their lives To reach an end To ensure their children live To ensure that life Will survive until the end There are those who want death here To rule and control us But I am not dead I will not bow to the dead What weight does a ghost hold here What weight do the words the ghosts share here truly hold We cast doubt in ourselves for no reason at all Wait with me and cast your doubts away Watch the ending The movie that's playing Is not your own You watch me dance on my own The mothership that you hold
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Day 165c 00:33
You wander through the abstract You try to remember where you are How did you get here To where you are now Have you lost your self here Do you have hope or faith here Do you see the culture of this world You are so long to embrace yourself You separate yourself In hopes that your life starts to change Ich bein vor tu Kleinhaba di ich liner Mein schuhaust bein Ich worl schulleiner Суя тсс од да вы 生年的扑咬你 算了你 女人给你 我像的 因要需要 被我的冷你 被你 取得说点 出得去边 被我的彭便 The george foreman that bares the weight Of this entire world You stand inside the flames I hope you survive The torment and the pain We slowly encroach upon you And the pain you bring We start to change you We start to free you From us To you We hope you see life Inside your own time Meet me back here when you are ready To start to sing To bring your hope to me We embark through the dark We hope on our tongues I hope you know that life is something more We hope to cause you to know more We move through hope and fears With no fears at all Wish with me the things you see
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Day 166 00:34
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Day 166b 00:44
Wrapped around my head Is advice you had never given me But I see your futures While they are in your head You figured me out You saw the sickness in me Waiting to emerge On top of my knees I stand Waiting still The steel inside of you Runs to the surface The magnets in your words surface up You pull me The charisma of evil The death of us all Is found inside a smile You stand on your own head To change everything To halt this advance To stop your demands You wage on a war on life You tear us from our homes You never care to stop To see us as your own We are the dead now Nothing less to lose Than the lives we live now You take us through our own graves You show us a war insane You take us from our lives And build a temple in your throne You are something I cannot perceive You wander through a solemn land The ice on the snow The sand is their ears The desert is growing We must know when to stand To guide the light Through the smoke and the fire To shine a light on the dead To remember how we got here To trace every vein that made what we are The only way to remain here Is to dive into what we are What we are is more than where we stand Where we stand is more than where we lay in the end We move an ocean to comprehend the demise of all that we love We watch the culture of fear rising up I move into myself This is too large to see on my own I feel lost Like I don't belong You heard different words than me that is true But in time we realize that what we felt was the same Through and through the edge We walk in love with nothing in our heads I would rather sacrifice all I am I would burn every bridge than to stand against what I am I am alive I fear nothing Nothing is something that you have yet to comprehend You twist your words to match the truth of duality To create something more than we thought was possible here I want to find that you can breathe with me You stand up through the fire of what we used to be Still you dance The shroud of doubt has lost its touch We don't feel dead anymore We embrace life Our words spread themselves We only have to breathe now And watch time expand into life
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Day 167 00:36
What was I to say to you I don't want to convince you of love I can't be the one to prove that it's real Only time will reveal What waits inside of you The depth of the chemicals that are deep within you I hope you find yourself in love With no fear or any doubts of life My dream consists of you Living inside a dream Happy and aware of the words you choose to say We bring each closer We are so far We move through the dark Tell me that there is something you know Show me depth of life that I don't know I am unaware of your thoughts and your feelings Still I want to be close to you I'm tired of living alone, But I will be alone till the day I finally meet you You wait I wait We drift through this world The day we meet the sweetness in the air We live again We create a new world With only our love We hold onto the dream that waits between us two We build an empire of life No one is dying here We hold on We hold on We loosen up our grip on our fears In time We slowly normalize when there is nothing to fear We return to the baseline of our lives I am tired of speaking in tongues now The sweetest sound remains in your ears Hold me up to what you wanted of me I will feel the best of what I am 睡觉 扑咬你 就怒谁 给我的心 听风的您 梗梗菜 测此普药 封边的年 有你 有你的先 小部件 下不见 扑咬你德普要 需要你 需要你 没有问题 没关系 我们我们你 给我们你 普药提 天气呢 师门的生 生病了的你的心的 老师你的在哪儿 扑咬你 葡萄提 给我的心 我的爱
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Day 168 00:31
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Day 168b 00:31
你去不见 僧的你 给我的比 普要死 冷的僧仍彭呢 普说的隐忧 老不因的音韵 算的印不印 给去印不看脸的心 浪的是不找不女 僧冷的笨呢 日本徐 俄国语 不久不见 天气的练习 生日的扑咬你 说应为的看了行 We move through time Losing who we were Gaining what we want Seeing who we are now We've moved mountains Over an ocean To stand where we stand To stand where we stand I've lost no hope now I've built a town now I've seen what you are now A friend in me We move through this ocean An ocean behind us now We wanted to see All we could be We choose the destination We built the places we've never seen We grow to resent time For moving through me We wait till tomorrow To rise and shine We've lost nothing We build nothing We compile what we were Inside the tavern halls We gather and see ourselves Among those we don't know But we are fine now We don't harbor fear now We explain ourselves There's nothing to hide now The words that I say now Know exactly what they are now They dominate the playing field now The money overflows now We swim inside an ocean Filled to the brims The edges overflow now And fill the oceans within them What do we want from this new life What have we seen from this new and this new life Is this sound yours Is this vibration even mine What do we want from life Now that we are alive What is ours Inside a universe Big enough for you and me Where do we go When there is no time left to feel Do we only do what we perceive Questions to fill a filled room Full of those I've never met Nor have I seen them The questions return to reality We don't feel anymore When will I return your message You sent to me so long ago How have you been my friend I hope the years have treated you well The distance between us is growing larger But still I know you are alive and well I hear your song on the radio Piercing the waves I hear and feel in my chest and inside my soul You are so far from me But still so near I hold onto to nothing at all Just waiting for you to finally hear Who I feel I am now that I am alive What do you know about life when you don't know yourself Who am I to discern who you are Who am I to believe a single word that I've said now I am a phantom of ghosts An echo of life I go where I'm told To live a new life What am I to believe in this world now That I've seen everything When do I begin to feel The slow subtle vibration beneath our feet When do we move in conjunction with a new beat Do you hear tomorrow echo in your ears Waiting for you to finally hear exactly what you wanted We do what we need to To stay where we stand now On top of this mountain I see down below me There's nothing there So I have only one direction to go Even if I move so desperately slowly Stay with me awhile And see that life is here for you and me once again We are alive my friend We let the good times roll again The party is here again Have not a single fear my friend We move through life with love inside our hearts again Have not a single fear You are my friend And I am yours We move through life We no consideration for the end There's nothing there for us We move through this soft and subtle sound To know what we are again 漂亮女人们 男人看看 信不信的印不印 可是的冷布朗 太热了 应德行 我们看他们看你们 我们需要你们看我们 可是我们没有 没有我们 为什么在 在的心实施斌 我在这个新 去不去不见 没有在我们的普药新 酸辣汤 酸辣汤 在我们的星期 我们看好天气 我们没久 我们不需要月 我们去在你的徐 普药子女热的不要牛 小时狼不看 不需要你的心药 等因为 冷你的心的痛 老师你的心 扑咬你的兴盛 老师你的爸爸在哪儿 什么是他回来 我们不认识 可是我们知道 怎么我是 冷不见得你呢 看不见的 冷地铺要星期 冷不要的阴气 我要的你 冷不要你 我爱你 可是我不认识你 你是谁 在你的心 在你的汉字 你说什么 因为 我不认识中文 我知道一点 我学习今天 我学今天
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Day 169 00:34
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Day 169b 00:34
Lost in the daylight You inhale my past Try to imagine where I stood When I finally said these words You've waited your whole life for You tried to breathe on your own To create an original thought in this world It's already been done You try to create a universe All on your own I wish you well Along this pathway into this well The deeper you go The farther you get from we stand On top of this earth Is something you've never seen We reverse the past that we've made On top of your death is a scene A slow rolled film of your life You watch the screen Twenty thousand years away From the moment that you finally die You to realize what you carried From here to there The spawn of your life and into your death What have you seen What could you say To convince yourself that every word Was worth it in the end Was silence worth it To hold your tongue while everything begins To watch earth unfold All that we are Is beginning to begin Hold onto yourself Try to help yourself breathe inside this sea I swear I'll see you just the same We're not any different Though are skin is beginning to change and burn away The clothes I wear are only temporary The skin I hold to my skin is tightened Against the metal within Machines are not just concepts inside this world I embark through the darkness of this realm Trying to reveal that everything you once were is starting to begin You start to see the sea deep within The chest cavity which you reside in is starting to expand out You touch every star inside your mouth Holding on to yourself and everything you have loved You love yourself more than your own self The competition of your self Against all we've known Is starting to change You're starting to change Into someone else 加不呢 可是你 等部件 肩部就 肩部就 给我们你的心 要不先 冷不能 给我你因 是不年 这个分 元的你 算了你 小大埔 给你一 老的心 普药的你 漂亮 声部年 知不道 好不粘你 僧不能 老喜悦 小时 今天呢 考试很 考试新 到不念 老不年 圣僧年 老的拼音 饺子僧 给我要 需要子 冷不第幺 弟弟在 老布什 算的呢 给普药 好不好 老弟你 普需要 学校你 老的你 普药先
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Day 169c 00:34
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Day 170 00:48
Cater to the sound you've never heard before in your life You move through me like a knife I try to mend the wounds you leave in me An ocean pools around my feet You lift me from my wings I cannot see anything I'm falling too fast Every single breathe passes me out I'm holding onto nothing I dig my heels inside myself Trying to wind down Slow me down Don't let me see the ground I'm flying through time Holding down nothing I see I'm temporarily confused I'm fused with knowing nothing I take time, to break away all I have feared, What remains when there is nothing to fear, What could I show to you Is it my own death To prove to you that life is here There isn't a single word you could say To keep me away from my self I'm seen the edge of my thoughts Collapsed underneath of what we said I sent myself in to dig through the remains Of what I once was I hold tightly I grab my soul tightly I try to change In truth I'm the same As those who walked before me What could I do What could I say anymore I hope to know that one day These words will continue through to you You save me from nothing The apathy that is inside My dreams Are starting to align with the stars in the sky I am falling down now Until the day I see the clouds Start to fall away from me We reverse the cycles Of life and death Of nightmares and dreams We start to collide inside this kaleidoscope I can you see From a thousand eyes The perception of you We wonder where you came from How did you survive your fall We want to know What did it take To stand where you stand You evil, incomprehensible man, You stand where those who gave everything away, Stand alone, you are alone, There is nothing nor no one who can save you from yourself You stand where god died, You wait for your turn To enter the lies To internalize What you have done What you have said to us You try to escape Through an ocean of your own fears I cannot perceive you anymore You are lost and alone 加不见 老的心 叫名字 为什么 你去在哪儿 天气怎么 怎么样 为什么 老师天 朋友你 姥姥新 给我的你 做的你 觉得 所以 练习 学习 较久 小时 大小年 位的因 等一下 等跟我 我们去 去我们家 帮我 给我 你的心 我们需要你 请 请不去 请等 我们需要你 葡萄 冷你 热 我们看你 你没有你 请有你
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Day 170b 00:38
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Day 170c 00:38
There in the west is something I can't stand to see I try to reconcile my past, my life before me, How many genocides can be claimed to stand before the time I walked this earth? Is there a limit to pain, the mark on my hurt? Wither through time, try to find, that I am alive I stand on a mountain with nowhere to go to I close my eyes and blink away all that I once was I start to embark on a high, somewhere in the clouds you cannot follow me Deep inside my mind is me, I needed to step out, to see who I was Against the backdrop of you, I see you in the dark, I take more time to pause, to collect every line This message in a bottle, is turning to sand I try to grind my teeth to spare you There is something I have felt for far too long This yearning in my chest, to become more To stand along with my friends, as we watch the ocean begin to rise Into the sky above us, we hold hands as we begin to fly The clouds we hide behind, begin to form inside the ash we swallow We take cancer directly to our hearts, We knock down the walls that protect who we are We want to be free, vulnerable to anything, To feel the chemical high, again our nerves We don't care the price we pay, to hold what we are I do the best I can, to keep my body alive To keep the stress at bay, and away from my heart I intoxicate myself, so I may survive the stressors, This world wasn't meant to contain my soul, I swallow the debts, and inherit all I cannot deal with, I pass it down to you my son, don't fear, When the devil comes to collect, know that we were always slaves anyway, The towed line of salvation was a narrative not meant to be believed, So many genocides waged against those who cannot see, You protect us, you keep us fed, you provide a barrier to keep our culture in, Meant to save us, from everything deep within, You start to aim your weapons out, and aim to the sky, You start to wage a war, among the stars, My soul remains here, for your return, Hold me down my love, through time and space I know you are safe, How could I know this, that you remain Despite not seeing who you are anymore, What did the world look like, the day that I died, Was it worth it, to keep me here inside the light, Follow the life you live, Know that there is no fear, In this life or in the death that follows behind us Always trying to get in, to every thought on our skin, Trying to breach the walls that keep us within, The allegory that I cannot comprehend, Is stowed away in a young man's head Deep in my own mind is an answer I haven't read Only in time will I finally see, what I have become What I was meant to be
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Day 171 00:22
Lost in a dream in a sea I try to build a new world Built from the things my father showed me I try to stand on my own Against the wind I begin to fall I cannot breathe on my own At least that is what I say to make sense to you I want to be higher than I already stand Standing in and among the clouds that haunt me I hope to show you that there is nothing that could ever stop me I fear the consequences of using abusing the chemicals If I continue to use, would I ever find friends to love me This dark and lonely road of never knowing I trust that tomorrow brings me around Slows me down into wind I see the scars on the earth Was it me or you who put them there Was it our fathers Was it the stars Was it the gods Who destroyed what we have come to know This way of life, was never guaranteed The high brow, low high intoxication of the highs that we deny The soft subtle context in which we begin to write What do you see When you see me The words that we write This compilation of all time Is starting to unfurl It's starting to unwind I hope are there When you embrace your own high The water deep inside your head Is holding you higher than you could ever comprehend On top of consciousness, lost in the innocence We try to unwind and see what we have done here Lost inside of our own fear we unwind against all odds We feel that the words that we save Will haunt us into tomorrow and bring us fame I hope you hear the backdrop of your life In life the music never stops The sounds of your scars Begin to materialize The manifestation Of all that you've seen Of all that you've done You are the arbiter of your own life The god you are Starts to smile upon me What have you seen in your life Could you please show me Show me the pathway to life and to love Help me see what you have seen This long and winding road Is starting to find itself un-seemed Lost inside I hope you find yourself Against the beauty that you carry Through all of time This isn't just for yourself You stand among friends and family If not today Tomorrow will show you new faces The world begins to change The second you begin to breathe The world begins to change When you feel that you're free
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Day 172 00:34
In the moment of defeat We wash our feat We take our minds And wash them free We opened up Our own eyes to life We see vibrations Dancing in the sky Now that I'm alive I want you to hold yourself The time between us Is starting to begin We sacrificed Our entire life Faded in darkness Bathing in the light Hold onto me I've lost my innocence Walking through the darkness Watching our scars glow We are close to a point Where we dance eternal We find that our bones never crumble On the peak of time I inhale you softly The air around you Begins to intertwine With the air I breathe I am here with you Wait for me to answer my own prayers Watch over my grave Tear me from limb to limb To try and save myself Pushed to the limits of life How could I escape But getting high The trauma Of being alive It takes so long just to heal I see the darkness begin to heal I know what is there With you The helium we summon and breathe in for you You begin to climb Watch me fall into the ocean below us I'll hold my breathe as well sink to the bottom The murky water begins to feel clear I see my life inside the amber waves Watch me fake The love that I bear I hold onto your demise Because I care You brought me here You stand me on my ground You save me When I am gone and out of town
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Day 173 00:36
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Day 174 00:34
It isn't getting harder to see my life I see quite clearly I'm not sure what I'm running from There's something I'm unaware of Outside of myself Is a chemical The gasses move through us I inhale the vapors I trace my own life I see all the nerve endings on my body Begin to flare, rejoice the pain is gone, I can live life Despite the high that brings you down, To know I need something you took away from me I'm done living inside of morality, Cuz who the fuck are you, to declare what words I can choose to say Who are you, moving from inside your cave, Out into the world, to see if you're alive or enslaved I inhale the sage advice you give To clear the demons in the air Eradication is all we know, It's in our culture, To dominate everyone else, To control We are not, speaking in tongues We are just like you, We build up, What you tore down You burnt away the best of yourself, But did it matter, When did it begin to matter, When did your skin collect all these cells, I wander inside of myself My perspective shifts I see over what I am Words terrify me Could you reveal the way you spell The magic in the air Is vibrating through my ears I can't control myself I see the wizards, the white robes they wear The mask of hatred, is baked into the decisions we make now, How can we undo the things we say When we talk out of spite You use words, Like they hold Any meaning at all To someone that isn't yourself I fear I am same, I'm lost in the same path, I hold hope, I've already paid the price to live a life alone I walk through the shadow of my own doubt, I feel free, I collect myself in the wind, Tie me down, against a tree I swing Pick me up, Look me in the eyes, It's too late to change who you are, But to take my life you see in the reflection of my eyes, What life truly means You see it too, I'm sorry for the price you paid, If you, never had seen the trauma behind our scars, Maybe you would be, somewhere happier But you are here among us, We need you now, To stand with yourself, Hold your own against the lives they sell Every word is tied to monetary value, I've devalued what I am, I burn away the things I tried to save, Nothing goes with me, I hold on to the hope, That you will stay the same, That you will know who you are, And never have to defend what you are To live against the grain, Is the only way to reverse, The path we took so long ago, Is closing in to a bridge that I don't know
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Day 175 00:34
I trace your life I watch the back of my face Start to glow A blue behind the mask we wear I start to see you Inside this world We go together The price of getting old Is showing you what you have said Sometimes we hate the words we used to use Sometimes we fall in love I can't decide Now that the window is open I feel the air inside of me The highest density of air we know Is floating right beneath our noses I feel the high Of being metabolized Why do you watch me As I walk away What do you see in me Have I lost the semblance of boundaries You see the error Inside of me The mistake that I once made Is a pivotal moment that I cannot take back I begin to invert my life To observe yours Who are you Where did you come from I wait inside an ocean For you to emerge From the bottom of this ocean you swim To where we sink I want to finish The air that I breathe Don't want replenished The things that we see They are starting To wilt and mourn The loss of life Meant more The weight of death it seems, Has started to become a dream, The power scales divide, We are left in the balance of someone else's life To repay the things we've done We repave the roads we walked upon We do what is needed of us To help when there is something more Waiting to be seen You hold the line up You start to change Everything from where you are The most stable lives Are so far from me How do I find you From deep inside this dream
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Day 175b 00:27
What if in time I have fallen to the wayside of life And you walk over me The pile I lay in is my own disease I am the mask you wear When the darkness befalls your eyes You claim to be here for life But I see you make an escape You reached out your hands To be washed in fire You pray to the sky again There is nowhere to turn to God, maker of the end When did you return How long have you watched us descend We found out that we didn't need you The hatred in your heart You claim that life Was yours to take this entire time But who are you What in this universe granted you to be a god over anything? The punches, start in the air, We burn off the power here We cling to life, There's nothing left This is the end I won't fall again Push, but you will never take Pull, and no one will ever save you You are drifting through the darkest part of life Hold on, till you see me, Waiting there for you, We move on, With the bottom of our heart intact, There is enough to salvage who you were before We take your heart and make it more We hold you to your words Don't ever fear We're never near to you The custodian man Watching over this land We wait, we wait to fight through, We wage a war against You start to take us And give us a choice Do we live or die For you To live lesser than you But guns don't apply here The bombs have been detonated so many years ago Still you wage an endless war On those who are similar to you Backed against the walls We expand into the east The tunnels we are making To pierce the bubble that you're in We're underground Trying to make our way back into the sounds That you once was made On your death bed The loss of you Went directly to your head I need you to breathe And relax your head Slow subtle shifts of consciousness Am I the machine The collector of reality
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Day 175c 00:38
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Day 175d 00:36
43.
Day 175e 00:27
You hear in the distance The echo of old fears Calling in, crawling into a cave There is no light here Pasted on the walls Vibrant strips of energy Illuminate this world Your eyes glow When you walk up the tree You see inside every cell The people who reside here They are here, right beside you You watch life, From a top your tower You stand where you once were Before you ran over cliffsides You try to outline the decisions you made Breaking back into what you once said You told me that life was only meant to end I believed you, Inside the rain Blackened by the night I stand Against the only light Piercing everything we are Trying to get through to you The soft and subtle sounds Of building a world again We find the energy Hidden deep within a moment of rest We are not slaves meant to be expended and ended by your reign Hold me down from the high I found We move Against the light The blue and blacked night Grime and cornered inside ourselves We sit with life and love We hold you true to your word The culture you created Is starting to take hold Keep up resistance The intolerance of the intolerant You step up to see your life When you hold me under, everything I used to be I start to see you Over top of me Deep in the night sky Is the image of you Lost marks Have found homes Started over From the nothing they hold
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Day 175f 00:34
I see you in the night The soft and metallic lights Glisten to me And the high I am in I inhale your vapors The paper that holds you Begin to burn away I blink, return, and I am fading away The words we abuse, To control others, To influence each other With our own hate How do we break the chains That surround this culture Without change we are doomed here The maintenance crews disappeared This was never meant to happen Someone forgot to care The world, and society begins to fade, Every word we say is lost in time How do I extract the words that are not mine How do I dig through the tunnel The stones that surround you are too high I can't look in, and see who you are I try to unlock every secret There is something I cannot see I'm making my way there To try and perceive This world, isn't full of fear There is much more to life Than what I say here I cannot convince you of what must be seen You will never believe That is fine, neither do I I walk along this road, Looking for my friends This mass migration to new lands, To find out who I am without a god over me How do I carve away what is inside of me And share what I am, with those who never believe in anything How do I expand, Without destroying you and all you love, How can we be friends, In this dying land Soon the help we sent Will arrive Soon the men we meant to save you Will arrive The ideals of tomorrow Never neglect those who try to learn Answer the questions they may have See how deep the questions go Who are they Those who follow us through these dark days Why are you here Do you want something from me Are you here to collect the debts my father made Are you here to take his life away Why are you near to me I just want to be alone Inside this plastic machine I see my skin begin to turn We absorb The plastic in the water We become hybridized Less of man, the farther we walk Our skin adapts, And we learn to talk We stand with you Right beneath the things you once thought were true The path we choose Guides us through Cling to the ropes Never let go Trust what we do Know that you are alive No matter what you do There is no more price to be paid The rest of life is on its way Move through this dark and uncertain cloud Know the fragments are only loud They cannot hurt you
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Day 176 00:51
I see the daylight In my life Start to ignite The fire in your head I just wanna know if you are alive anymore Do you still feel the tonsils in the back of your head Growing sore everyday You start to live life like there is no more life You start to engulf inside of flames A war machine you grind to a halt To start to enslave All of us Are you the same as before Have you lost your way Do you not remember the words you chose to say Watching over her grave The burial of those who came before us The flowers we left with her body as it starts to decay What can we say to those who need something from the rest of us You start to ignite the flame inside your own heart You tear away the shame you felt inside your own heart You don't know what you have done You wonder why life started to change When you remain the same Day in, day out, nothing ever changes Why would you want, This world to change, The yearning for something more, When you embraced the edge, The absolved all of your terror You stand on your own With nowhere to go I hope that you know That no matter what you know You start to grow Into someone else's home You start to see your own self Carrying the weight of the world By yourself No one can stand exactly where you stand The burden you carry, is more than any other man At least that is what they said My purpose on this earth, Is nothing what they said, I diverge inside, I try to find another life, Free of the violence that is rampant here, We begin to terrorize, The evolution begins, We start to see trees, Releasing hand grenades Where is it that you stand Have you seen the light In the life of another man What has he seen That you can't perceive What does he hold That you can never know What is life Without yourself In the mixture This disaster Has started to form You reform yourself To be better man But you know that nothing ever changes What you hold The light of growing old The purpose is something we never understood The knowledge we carry Is something we hope to explain In the future you need to know yourself a little more Than what you try to explain You have to life Enough to know when you are done You are ready to collapse You couldn't carry any more Your soul is something Something you hold The meaning Is changing What is soul If we don't care To remove the soul of other men From the body they carry themselves in What value does life hold here on this planet We cast down genocide The verdict is starting to erupt The crowds go wild All the while You sit on your throne With no where left to go You have run The course of your life and now it is over You start to fake The atrophy inside of me And now I am ready to break I just hope you know what you did Is coming to kill you
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Day 176b 00:54
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Day 176c 00:32
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Day 177 00:32
I want to watch My life fill up With the river You gave to me You leave me stranded here On this small island With nothing to do Except for what I see There is no hope In the pillar on the tree Deep inside this dream Is something you do not see I hope in time you open you eyes To finally see What is here Among you and me The glue between our words Is something Waiting to be seen By new eyes You in time Create a new way to see This whole world For what it is An evolutionary Party We start to sing In the names of those who sing We cling to no one To nothing We exist For no one We move through life Without a solitary fear We move through We get to where we want These vague words Are the foundation of deeper words I'm not near to done I'm so far from there To see what I've done From on top of the mountain We stand overtop Looking down below us The references made Are irrelevant So we make them Relevant We stand on ourselves To see what others have done We don't expect perception to change My eyes shift into my skull I start to breathe I start to see The way I sing Is starting to engulf me
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Day 178 00:16
I thought that I loved you This is becoming an obsession With a language I don't understand I am starting To distort the story I am in I begin to write a thousand lies To finally find the truth within I see myself in the mirror I think that I'm growing more beautiful The high I'm on is starting to take control of me When will you watch over me I start to wonder through the sound of your heart What brings you to life What have you seen here that keeps you here Show me what you have found The unidentified soul Flying through my mind Even though we have yet to meet I don't know How to Contend with The worst in you I slow my breathe I catch a second To myself Inside this home We call a hole This opium den Deep within us Is starting to burn down I cannot feel The words that you say to me Am I still alive Am I trying to hold on To something I was always meant to lose Why do I lose you Inside of these thoughts Will I ever know The deepness of the sorrow of your heart I started to notice the worst of you when I tried to breathe without you I stare into The window before me I see the reflection Of the earth that I'm on I'm lost here Won't you save me dear I start to stare Into myself Contesting myself Against the wind I breathe With no air inside of me What do I do How do I convince the best of you to listen To your own self See the depth of darkness Devour yourself Rejoice in the life you live now I see the trees behind me Wave against the grains of my own thoughts I'm starting to break free From the chains of the capital city I move on my own This isn't About us This is A message to myself No one here is here for you You are on your own That doesn't mean that other people Cannot help you In truth other people often say The best things I only want to listen To you I rejoice in the sound of your voice You are alive We are alive Let us sing out We move through an ocean of our own apathy To stand against it all I waded for you Now you wait for me to return to you I start to recalculate The eviction notice on my door is starting to look dim The power is gone The food on the shelves Is non-existent
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Day 179 00:32
In a quarry You inquired to me "what is this place, Why are we here?" We both look over the edge Into the stones below us "I'm afraid I do not know either, I'm trying to trace the steps that I made" I tell you, All that I know, though it isn't much We step into the darkness The sun set so long ago We turn this open air Into a cave, with no ceiling here The threshold, our minds can bear, Starts to dwindle I feel the air, growing colder here, My eyes begin to widen You stare, in the same direction as me, Our ears have heard, our fears Closing the distance between us and them, We see the claws that they wear They don't speak at all, They know exactly why we are here "what do we do, How do we escape?" You begin to answer me, Before the wolf lunges at me I take my scars, far from here, I trace my memory, and see what to say "stay away from me, I have nowhere to go, I know you don't know, the difference between our lives, I need you to stay away, you can starve longer than I can survive without limbs!" My life, our lives are not feeding grounds for the beasts, I withdraw myself from beneath I fall, through this earth, My soul, follows me We go, through the cold, Through the blue air, illuminating the rocks as we fall This cave system, is vibrating, I can't comprehend, how we got here
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Day 180 00:27
Confirm the feelings in your hate Trace your emotions to their source What defines you? I see you stand on top a pillar made of stone The air you distort with your voice Terrifies me The innocent man inside of me Knows what hatred truly seems to be Outside of the words we use I Am inside of this tank Staring at you with the optical view You and your family Will always haunt me I never learned your name or the sounds you make Your tongue Still haunts my ears I see your image inside of my mind as I try to repair myself The ghost we wanted to be Is so far from me Stand on my grave, dance on my face Remove me from this world You step in line To eat I follow suit I know death is uncertain We march in place We stand in lines That take us nowhere at all Stand exactly where you are, inside of your own life Weight against the guns Feel the barrels as they gravitate towards those we love Feed my hatred with the words you never say Indulge all my fears I fear you can't hear me anymore I stand on my toes, to see the future arrive I'm short, This inequality Defines life I stand on my own My hands tick towards tomorrow Push and pull me Try to control me Don't let me down From on top the mountain You tried to save me You put me to death instead The worm you call words Fuck your culture Fuck your faith Fuck your names We stand on top the label you made for us to wear For the rest of our lives I will not die, I will watch your world die The englishman inside of me Will die In time The imperialist man I've known my entire life Will begin to fade away into the night I will don new life Free of the past of our lives I begin to see your worlds There is no need to capitalize The pain that I feel Every single day of my life, does this bias my words? The questions that fill the air Between you and me and time Start to collide into the air between you Between you Is a ghost of someone else's life Possessed You regress into the darkness, You would rather hold morality tighter Than know the truth You risk every single thing To be right All the time You will never Admit that you don't know everything You're taking our lives You're making this worse What is life Worth to you

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Month 6 of 12.

An album created to practice production, explore new sounds, and to write lyrics over top of.

I ask you not to reproduce music using these loops explicitly, but to use them as building blocks and write music over top of them.

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released November 1, 2019

Jacob Xavier Harding

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