1. |
Day 151
00:31
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下不见
看我们
爱我你
你我开
我们爱你
下不见
不见爱
看想要
我们出
我们出看你成哥
你的家去
网上爱你
我们的心
我们的心
帮我帮你
帮我帮你
我们去家
看你看你
看下你我你
你月你月你
看的日
北京的我们还
我需要你
请帮我
东西拱们在的朋友的家
帮我帮你帮我们
我们需要你们
给我们你们的脑
你的说什么
情妾我
你的夯实
我需要心天
给我你的想要
我看你在你的中心
被你的
被你的
你去在哪儿
我滚着你
在你的心你有你想要的朋友
我滚着你
琢磨,你们做
什么的朋友
我的彭在哪儿
你需要朋友给你你的想要
小宝
学生
老师
脚面
月小宝
月小宝
月小宝
月小宝
我需要你
你需要东西
我不要你的想要
给我我的,我的心
我需要,我的心
我需要水
我需要追缴
给我我的心
我大学上的热
我需要朋友
今天给我想要
小标,召见
不叫不见
不叫不见
酸辣汤
酸酸的
酸酸的
酸酸的
酸酸的
酸酸的心
先不见
简约雪娇
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2. |
Day 152
00:32
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下不见
卡你以后
你去在哪儿
跟我你
我需要今天
我需要明天
我需要水
你需要什么
跟着你
根治你
以后朋友
以后朋友
看你什么听
我听你说什么
你下需要朋友
给我你的爱
我们去今天
出不见
出不见,你下
给我,给我
什么名字
你叫你有你
给我你的爱
你的的心
下不小
小不见
进酸辣汤
酸酸的冷
梦有空儿
中尼辛妮尔儿
我有你
你帮我
给我们
什么我们需要
给我们什么我们需要
我们需要爱和心
我帮
明天的
在哪儿
朋友你在哪儿
我需要你
帮你下
就免得
给我月
给我日
我而且
不但你
给我不但你
I once found a love letter
Directed to me and no one else
To try and convince me the path I walked upon
Wasn't just my own
In truth I did not believe you
I'd seen you die
How could you stand before me
And wish that life was changed?
There is blood on my hands and my hips collapse under my own words,
The source of all pain in this universe, where does it stem from?
Could we embark into the night sky, and find what ails us,
What ails us in the dark nights?
I want to believe in you,
But who are you
To me anymore,
When will you spend more time with me,
Set me free,
Let me breathe on my own,
Without your diseases,
You spread the plagues,
Your name,
Is inherited from slaves,
They pass it down,
To set them free,
You have to see,
Who you are,
Inside darkness,
Save yourself and your chemical induction to life
We have your back if you have mine
The multi faceted dream we walk through
Has held only me and never you,
And I am sorry for that, truly if you could stand where I stand, I would give you my self centered life
But I can't,
So I won't,
You can't,
So don't take life from me
I will never try to take the breathe away from you,
You give in to me,
I never understand why you listen to me,
I am a dead man walking through his own head, just leave me be
The shadows we watch,
Watch us back,
We wander through time like life was meant to be had alone,
But still you remain, even with my eyes closed
Something has changed here,
Have I begun to grow,
Has my life changed, for the better or worse?
When will I know?
I was once a man,
Who could never see himself,
But here I stand,
Directly before you
Admire me,
Let me be,
A man,
For once in my life
Let me speak,
Let me spin,
Let me grind my hands against time,
To feel the wall directly between you and me
The bubble I breathe,
Is directly my own,
Let me be,
Inside my life,
Don't let me sleep,
Through all of life,
Give me a chance to be more,
Never let me fall,
Never let me fall,
Never hold my hand,
Don't push me off the edge,
I'll find you,
I swear to god I'll find you,
The infinite expanse of time,
I'll find you,
And when we smile
I'll move directly through you,
To see the life right behind where you stand,
And hold it in my hands,
The life you create for me is coming close
Just let me breathe,
Just let me be,
Hold onto faith,
Examine your fate, and breathe again
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3. |
Day 152b
00:31
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下布甲尼晚安
给我你的心
我需要你的那个
任你邮你
三四个去你
热锅有你
看我的朋友
看我的朋友
我需要你
给我的们
你这只猫
你这是毛
我会看你
你不好请
你不好你
给我你的心
给我你
给你的信
女人们
女人们
维兹维兹你
你的朋友在哪里
说不见
说不见
图书馆你的人
给我的你
你的什么
葡萄听
酸辣汤
你叫不见
我的心
我的心在哪里
I'm starting to begin
To unravel everything you see
Closing in in
Into the truth you seek
That time is illuminated here
What more could you need here?
We move bricks,
Of fascists
We block your roads,
We break your homes and tear them down,
We build overtop of your lives
We move directly to the end of your life
Soon you cower in fear
The hatred you feel
Is illuminated by your own fears
But they aren't real anymore
What more could you want inside of this world?
The slowest progression is moving us toward life
Don't let me in,
Don't let me take life into my own hands
I'll throw it away, I swear to god,
To run off the cliffs with no regard to you,
Just let me move fear,
The way that fear moves me,
I'm using words,
In evil ways,
The ways,
You told me to avoid
Deception in perception is beginning to insinuate
That something is changing here
The cause of fear is drugs and the chemicals
Inside the air, the chemical trail that follows you
You intoxicate us,
With the cage you made us,
We love institutions
We move a mountain, with institutions
This bio-machine, we call society,
Is starting to rise, and form a life,
You cannot kill what is not yours anymore,
The power in one man, is starting to leave our side
The power of man, has left my mind,
Cuz what could I do,
To stop inevitable destruction,
But to spend my time destroying you
To cover the page, with the fear you instill in me,
To cover the page, with all of my misery,
This sweet sound, is starting to begin again,
The memories start to build upon themselves again
We move mountains with the words we say,
We move through cob web infested caves,
Life was once here,
And will soon return again
We move through this cave,
The moment is now,
The light fixtures in the clouds,
Begin to vibrate with anticipation
The nation participates in a purge again,
The radical sides on both sides,
My insides, turn tail and run,
But my bones are steady, steady to the core
There will never come a day
When I swallow death
Embrace the darkness
The signs of the end
I see what you sell
At the end of the tunnel
You try to entice me to end it all
But you had one chance and the day is gone
You should have killed me when you had a chance
You can never raise a hand to me again
This arrogance you wear is starting to wear thin,
The time is nigh, to live a life, for all of time
I'll see you there,
Walking for a moment,
And turning back,
To see where you are
How far you have come
This moment is yours
I applaud you in life
This life is yours
Spend it how you want to
Just never take a life
Just never take life in
To your own hands
Till the day
That someone kills again
Will you see
The fear in me start to rise again
This day has come once more
The day when I shine a light
This aperture
And capture your evil
And preserve you forever
Only you can change
Only you can save yourself
From the hell you create
You walk this earth
You masochist machine
You take life
And enslave the best of me
This bird in the cave
Is suffocating under the toxic air you breathe
The hatred you spill out of your lungs
Is starting to feel like disease
You try to decipher
What god above has left you
In truth the only thing he left you
Is inside of you
You are the fear of change
The fear of life
The fear of everything
To get to the other side
Before you even know where you are
You want to escape this life
Before you understand what life is
You give in, before you begin
Where do you go when you feel?
Who do you seek out to tell you how to feel?
Tell me, show me, what they know,
What have they said?
What have others said, to draw you in?
The tunnel ends with you,
The first one in, is the last one out,
And I'm not done, so get me out
Move me to the core of your heart,
Let me see your vena cava and breathe you in
Your life, isn't mine anymore
Go forth and live your own life, separate from mine
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4. |
Day 153
00:33
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小不仅
给我
我需要你
帮我
看我成呢
跟你
我们在
我们在爱
我们去月
跟没人
给我的行
给我前面
我跟着你
跟着你加不见
看我
看你
小我不
听起来不才
都在东西
北南东西吗
你会帮我吗
我需要你
你的帮
我的心在睡
我的脑也在水
帮我跟你
酸辣汤
酸酸的冷
我跟着你
在今天
在明天
都
小我看你
给我的你
你的心你
图书馆你有
有你
你有你
在你的后面
后面你在哪儿
请你给我
东西吃
我需要东西
帮你
帮我
我去在今天面
我觉得你
你的鞋子
小你给我你的孩子
被客气
说什么
你的帮的医生
我需要
你医生
给我你想要
所以我也会有
我需要你
给我时间
看我的心
在时间
在你的加
是你
是你在你的心
帮我帮你
I started
Moments ago
I built a wall between us
So that you would know
The price of every mistake
Had already faded away
We live life for the first time
Not as slaves
Not as gods
But as men
Waiting
Waiting to find ourselves again
We moved oceans
We wanted to see what could be
When we complete
When our mind finally sealed us in
So that we could really see who we were within
I trace chemicals
I ingest them
I forget them
I move pass this moment
But it takes time
The effort I spend
In every word
Inside of every line
This concerted
This effort isn't mine
Not alone
I'm never alone
Inside a mountain
Is a cave
I tried once to count every passage
The slow moving moments
Through trauma and through fear
Eventually time will show
The memories disappeared
Just give me time
And I will always hold life
Just give me time to be alone
I will move mountains
I will sing your name
I will create oceans
Of the emotion within my veins
Just give me time
This slow pulse of life
Has moved me before
But now I move it
My mind catches up to you
Sometimes I go too fast
Sometimes I'm the last
We cower in the dark
This light in the spark
These seconds count more than any hour
These seconds last longer than any hour
I feel the tar against my lungs
Something inside
Desired to be fumigated
The chemicals inside
How can I turn again
How could I reveal
Who is really deep within?
My soul isn't your,
My life and my time,
This life isn't your
You know who you are,
You look just like me,
You feel just like me,
That time collapses underneath of us,
That we can't do everything,
In truth I just want to walk,
And see every single thing,
To remember the sound of your laughter,
To bypass the civil war that's approaching,
To ignore the cries for war,
To attend to life and only life again,
To love and forgive,
To stand with friends,
With no concern,
Of the days that pass,
The time that settles on our paths,
We walk forever more,
Trying to laugh,
In the face of life
In the face of death
We spin around in circles
I speak to machines
I record every word
How many eons pass inside this day
The many changes
The details of my pain
The anguish you scream
Inside of silence
It's inside of silence,
Cuz no one can hear you,
When you don't speak,
But how can you speak,
Around those who instill fear in you?
I want to scroll the page up,
And think of better thoughts,
And return to the days,
Where I thought I was better off,
Living with friends,
Singing in tongues,
Speaking in words,
Just having fun,
Living inside,
Watching the world,
Slowly burn alive,
We sing of the end,
In truth we'll never see,
This is just the beginning,
Eternity is something different for me,
I'll stay here,
I want to remain here,
Don't let me leave,
Enslave me to your throat,
Teach me the soft sounds you know,
Hold me when I am sad,
Kiss me, when I kiss you back,
Smile that life is here,
Never far and never near,
Still we always hold on,
I laugh with you,
I scream with you,
We stare into the sun,
We stare into the sun,
We're blind now
But still we feel alive now
We don't know who we are
I've lost hope before
It wasn't where I want to be,
So I'm farther now,
I push that day inside my mind,
The day I lost my life,
To your control,
And I speak to you the world, the society that surrounded me,
The culture and the way you speak,
You can't see the end,
When all you do is speak,
The slow moving pulse of our fears,
Guides us through the dark and our years,
Take me farther from here,
Hold my hand as we fall through land,
My feet are destroyed,
A cripple is born here,
Inside of my heart,
Inside of my fears,
Of the words that you say
When I am dead,
What words will you choose to say?
Will you stop,
And listen to me,
Speaking to you from inside of my grave?
How can I pierce the dark?
You surround yourself with the dark,
Hold yourself, against all of time,
Your fear, isn't mine,
My fears, shatter my life,
I cannot indulge in yours,
I wish I could,
I wish I hear you,
Scream through the darkness,
I will find you,
Lost in the echoes
Of your own mind
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5. |
Day 154
00:42
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说不见
你有什么
给我你
什么你说你
我给你填的吗
朋友什么
你有什么
帮我
给我你
我说你信
我说你西
给我你心
看我看你
长长的碰你
我需要我
给我你
说你有
要不见
需要你有你
被我你
给我你
你的心
我爱有你
我爱油田的你
跟着你
跟着你
取药
取药
朋友在你
给我的你
看你
看你
你需要
有你
给我的脑
给我你
我需要你
去取长
公共你
你去哪儿
跟我你
你跟说
去点
你有你
给我你
说不见
说不见
小部件
你被我
给我你的心
看我看你
看你的说尽
你不点你
给我你
被我你
我说你
要是你所以
被我
安你得去
年你说你
给我你
我你月
你有你
我们你月
I want to break away the lines that stand between you and me
In time I wanna pray about the time you tried to kill me
Until that day I walk alone without you inside of my life
I wander if you survived deep through the dark nights
What have you lost along the way?
What did you throw over board
To keep your ship afloat?
Was it values you valued?
Did you lose sight of life?
Do you remember the outline of your soul?
Do you remember the purpose you gave yourself on this earth?
Do you still trace yourself with lines?
Have you remembered the greatest detail?
Have you transformed?
Are you something more?
The days blur in, the nights give out,
What we were before,
The summer is living inside my lungs,
To escape the cold nights of winter,
I feel ill,
The bacteria inside of me,
Move and groove to the pain of my nerves,
We transform, from life into life,
We never die,
We give life to life,
We have become, the walking earth,
The moss in my ears,
Begins to hear,
And recognize that life,
Is alive despite our ears,
And what we hear,
Isn't everything we see,
The evil your words,
Returns like a flood,
The darkness in your tongue,
Washes over every word,
You taint life,
You destroy all of culture,
You perceive in only evil eyes,
You see the worst in mankind,
And there is nothing else for you,
Only death will save you,
Only death will hug in the coldness of your dark nights,
There is revenge hanging in the air,
Dangling from a tree above your house,
Deep in the sky, is your life,
Hanging from me, hanging with me,
On our land,
Deep in the sky
Is your hands
Washing me
With my own fears,
I return to a baseline life,
To return my sight to myself and no one else
Move me,
Turn me into a fiend,
Destroy my home,
Destroy my hope,
Just me hope to grow,
Give me a future,
Give me a life,
To call my own,
Just give me air to breathe
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6. |
Day 154b
00:25
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7. |
Day 154c
00:34
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8. |
Day 154d
00:31
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Inside of sleep
We rest our eyes
And find peace
The pieces of myself
That I give to you
You find them in your hands
You wash your hands of me
The germ that I am
The words that I say
Terrible and loud I am
When you sit in silence
The silence
That we share
You count your fears
Inside your tongue
You close your mouth
And never tell anyone
Who you are
Underneath the surface
You hide away
Everything within your skin
You begin to burn
And feel alone
No one
Is there to help you anymore
Where do you go
When you are alone
What do you say
To convince those that see you
That you are alive
That you are well
You are fine
You just need their help
Speak to me
Try to scream
Help me breathe
I can't see
Myself
Inside this darkness
Show me the life I cannot live
Help me see you
Standing through darkness
I feel the rhythms
That guide us home
Everyday is something more
Than the last one before
The feeling
Of this quest unfolding
Our party
Moves through the land
We find the band
That stole our hearts
We had ourselves
Just to blame
For every wrong doing
We had seen
Who am I but the light
Casted upon the darkness
That we all emit
We are lost
Who is left to see us
Inside our emptiness
You don't speak to me anymore
But I swear I still exist
Without you
I cannot see
You know your self
Better than I do
The emotion in our throat
Is starting
To auto-synthesize itself
You trace the live
Of those before you
The greatness that has
Arrived before you
Starts to walk
Through every word
You distance yourself
From me again
You cannot see who you are anymore
So you turn to me
But I have no answers
All that I have
Is a moment away
From the terrors you face
The monsters outside of you
Growing larger everyday
The fear they instill
The fear they instill
They drive you closer
To the edge
You grab a knife
To defend yourself
You walk along the walls
Inside the darkness
You hide yourself
You hear their screams
Echo through the halls
Crying out
Who will save us now
We want to destroy everything
That we have
We will take your life just to prove what we have
Control over you
You are stuck in paralysis
You can go nowhere after this
The taste of freedom
Is starting to fade
But it's still in my veins
I will climb and crawl my way through
I will l hold myself
When no one else is here
I will be the one to define myself
No one, can tell who I am
You haven't seen where I've been
Nor can I see where you have gone
I suppose we both persist
Without each other
We go through life
We go through this life
Without fear
You take the worst in me
And throw it all away
Take me through this pain
And every word I've said
Just let me go
Just let me know who I am
The burns on my hands have had enough
The soreness in my legs has crippled me
Still I walk
Still I put my hands inside the fire of your heart
What do you want
From who I am
What could I offer you
What could I see
That you don't know
What words
What worth
Do I hold
A simple man
With no worth
Is all I am
I see it in your words
The words you say to me
Have all but burnt inside
I see the hatred you hold
I must run away from you
There is nowhere else to go
From here
I choose to go through darkened roads
In hopes that one day
I will find you alone
And help you find your way
To sit with you when you are healing
And talk the days away
In truth I am so far from there
I am only beginning
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9. |
Day 155
00:45
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10. |
Day 156
00:34
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11. |
Day 157
00:36
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12. |
Day 158
00:31
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A mind is loosened now
To accept every sound
Despite where it comes from
To hear every word inside the universe
We change the tunes
That we exhume
We change every word
That we use
There is something more
We choose to ignore
What we were
When we were born
We move through
The ice in your hands
Melts through your hands
I hold your hands
Who are you
To the night sky
To the dark gods
Inside of your mind
Who are you
When time fades away
Who are you
Today
Your mind is faded
Your soul is jaded
You cannot perceive me
For who I am
You are lost
Can never be found
Can never be seen
By sightless sounds
You move in an ocean wave
Against all we've saved
You choose death over life
You take lights and burn it all away
You were once my friend
But your high
Is one that no man can comprehend
I'm on my head
You begin to spin me
Through this web
I've lost all time to you
You take control of me
The toxoplasmosis inside your feet
Drags through me through every word
You try to speak but cannot be heard
You are lost inside
This coma of your heart
This coma in your mind
Confusion wears you
Inside and out
I watch you watch me
We see eyes
We can't breathe here
There's no where to go from here
To continue down this darkened path
To explore every word
We've written down
These darkened poems
Inside my hands
Is a pen made of you
Made of thee
Made for you
When do you spend out your life
In face of the life
That we have yet to spin
Trace me inside
I hate the things I begin to say
I want to change everything
But I don't know where to begin
How do I create a train
How do I spend my time
Without you in my life
And be alright
And just survive for a time
While I move through you
Wait without you
Posses your mind with
The thoughts you spread through mine
Your words
Create wars
Destroy worlds
Take lives
Take my own word
And perceive the end inside
You watch the edge
Of your life
Wither into the darkened nights
Without you inside
Wait for me
Just to breathe
Without perfection is there anything that I could be
Could I be a man
And wander the earth
With no plans at all
No plans to escape this earth
To escape this hell
To enable a massive tribunal of wars to conquer me
The man inside of me is desperate to be
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13. |
Day 158b
00:27
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I live with people filled with hatred
And they transfer it into me
All I feel is their anger
I want to destroy everything
To escape from this moment I'm in
To remove myself from reality
To never face adrenaline
To know who I am
Without interference
Their contentment with the end
Of their own lives
Why do they want mine?
I move against the trees
The shadow hide me
I want to be somewhere else
But I am a slave here
I have nowhere to go
Time is becoming dense here
A blackhole begins to form
Inside my parents mind
But they don't care
They don't hear themselves
The terror they spread
Through the air
They truly don't care
They would destroy everything if they could
But they have no power
Power over what is inside of me
I feel the distance
Between me and everything that surrounds me
I am cautious to move
To face the world around me
I have everything to lose now
I wait for a moment to see the edge
I feel the gasses moving slowly
My skin feels warm in this cold air
I am barren and alone
With nowhere to go
A home filled with hatred
A tyrant with no nation
I see prophesies slowly fade
Into the edge of my dreams and my sleep
But I still don't care
For what you say or what I hear anymore
A mouth filled with daggers
Stares through me
With no consideration of the life that I live
I am swore to those that I love, that I'd be different
And I am,
I feel pain in every word I say,
When I am inside of your presence
You don't see life anymore, it's in your eyes
You seek you cling to death now,
And I don't ever want to see you return again
Just let me go,
And be on my own again
Let me drift through the night skies
Let me face this paranoia you gave to me
And sing gentle songs to put myself to sleep
Just let me breathe
I needed life more than life was ready to give
I felt the edge of the world descend upon me
I saw the edge of the world collapsing around me
I'm on my knees, trying to scream
Into the distant air,
Can you hear me here?
I move an army, juxtaposed against the wind,
Let me march my men, through these lands
Let us return to our homes,
Somewhere for us to call our own,
We never meant to displace you,
Nor invade you, nor dominate you
I'm sorry and terrified,
Of what I am, and who's inside,
The terror of my past life,
Passes me by
What could I do with you,
Except expose the words you say,
In time I'll replay them for you,
And show you who you are
I'm not here to judge you,
Only help you see who you are,
The scars, on your skin, are deeper,
Than you could comprehend
Let me digitize your life,
Sort through every word you've said,
Sort through all your ends,
Inside of your mind
We go to the edge of our lives,
With no fear in sight,
That's all I want,
To live without fear forevermore
Is that too deep a dream,
To never face the death of you,
Nor for you to see me,
Wither into the dirt,
I am your son
I am the nothingness that surrounds you now,
This loneliness, this barrenness,
Is only yours now
I tried to warn you,
That time was shifting away,
Pulling me farther into a distant dream,
I'm sorry to say,
No nazis will be here to stay,
You'll slowly dissapear,
And swallow yourself inside of fear,
What could I say to save you, from your own thoughts
The darkness,
Haunts us,
Watches us grow old,
Waits for us to take turns growing cold,
But I never will,
I've been there before,
I've seen an open-closed casket,
With my name on the epitaph
You tell me
To watch myself, and never approach the edge,
But you don't see yourself,
You're directly on the edge
You look to me,
You tell me to watch closely,
As you ran,
Into the abyss below you
So much time has passed,
That I don't even remember,
The way the air moved,
Brushed pass my face
I don't remember the smell,
I the night before, I set my guitar out,
I wanted to destroy it all,
To ripple out into the universe a sound you all could hear
A sound, that represented,
Everything that I felt till that day,
But I never did it,
I ran instead
Into the abyss below you,
I couldn't wait,
I wouldn't wait,
For you
A thousand miles separated me and you,
You told me to go my own way,
But I don't ever know who you are,
Who was I?
Where did I find the strength,
To run into the dark all on my own?
The vibrant lights when I close eyes
Remind me of home
I twist and fade away
I try to change
But I can't
I suppose I won't
I'm tired of fighting
Of speaking
Of conversing
With those who cannot hear
When will you listen
When will you help yourself hear
I cannot be your god
I cannot hold you any longer than I have been
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14. |
Day 159
00:34
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说你
给你
补你
以爱
要捕捉
卓尼你
给我
由得你
不看看你
店面是
联系得
扑咬起
有你
说你
我的剑
由智利
文伟
应为揍你
内你
位子
为自行
小不大
打球你
有你
被我子
桌子
给我的
柚子
联系的你要
给我
喝的我闹
说你
娶你
六月
女日
给自
字的一的一的
有做你
娶你
我的揍你
有的有你
布套皮
揍你
绿泥
周不见
给你
东西吗
东西吗
为你有你
你有的心你
普药
要你自
给我的新的因
雷沃
在你的家
我去
备案去
你走你有
昨天
去月
跟你
跟鱼
吃你
吃你
I once spit a fire
Made of stones
To save my throat
The temples underneath the ground
Collapsed under me
I feel through the earth
With no time
I left, I levitated out
I ran away into the night from you came
I let every doubt inside of my head go
I followed the path you still resist
The love inside will always persist
I burn an emblem
Through the fire in your heart
I scarify the tissue that surrounds your mind
You never listen
The persistent motion that follows you
You insist life is something worse than it is
I never listen to the dead inside of your throat
This slow repeating message you left a million years ago
Where are you now
What do you see now
Do you remember the past
We created so much more
Than anyone else
It truly mattered then
I fall out of heaven
With no contemplation of the ground that slowly approaches me
I catch the fire and flames along my skin
Down below the surface is an ocean waiting for me to swim
I dive right in
I swallow the air for the last time
I smile no more
A hollow husk that surrounds the floor
You crawl through my mind
To burrow deeper
You take all I am
And throw it into a jar
I'm never enough
I wait for your words
In truth I don't know why
I know you are a liar
I cannot perceive the best in you
You burnt it all away
Save me from you
Let me sleep inside
The silence of a mind
That doesn't feel you
You twist inside of you
You shake the willow tree
Uproot the home we sleep inside
Take every branch and push it farther inside
Watch the seeds fall away with you
You cannot breathe alone
You run away with hope
That time is nothing at all
We hope we pray that we never grow old at all
To lose all we are
To gain the other heart that we hold
We would destroy everything
To follow our minds
Through darkened tunnels of light
We run through our lives
We breathe
To slow down our minds
We race through life
In truth there is no other side
So stay with me
Grow with me
Let's never lose sight of life
Stay with me
Stay with me my friend
Hold on tomorrow is in our hands
Hold on and watch
Who you are
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15. |
Day 160
00:30
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16. |
Day 161
00:37
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17. |
Day 162
00:31
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就你呢
给我的你的心
去我在年
在这个
男人
你需要你
要你有你
给我你的心
你要五你没有
你有你有你
被我你
下上你
今天
太多了
帮我
帮我
喔尼
说你
所致
说子的皮
葡萄
酸酸的
云
在这个五儿子
沃去工做呢
我闷你闷
扑咬你
说你的两栖
两个呢
吧呢
吗你
我你
年的
酸酸的
在去年
给我的爸爸的唱歌
我需要皮子
去你我爸爸的
要你说你
给的你
疗效你有
律师在我的外国
我去阴图
鱼说爱按个案
是明名你有
给我你
葡萄你的们的多
帮你
图书馆
在中国成
国在哪儿
在谁
我们天的号码
我去
给我的脑问你有你
我们去
在网上
我们去
在月
被我的天马
女比你
去你
给我的信
你没有心
I deep inside my mind
Try to hear new sounds
That I did not hear when I was born
The terror in my mind
What if I am torn
Between new worlds and my own
How would I survive myself
Could I look pass the words that I say
To the mirror inside my eyes
What words are there to say
How can I look pass the glass
That rests inside this frame
How can I see more
Than what is here
Than what is real
To formulate a plan
To escape the hatred in your hands
As fast as I can
I begin to run
Through the snow
Into the sands
Where you will never follow me
Glaze over where I stand
I know you want to destroy us where we stand
So we move
To higher ground
We wait for you
To make a sound
That is not your own
You mistake yourself for a god
You claim to thrones that don't exist
There is no right
Or mandate for you to cling to
To declare you anyone body else's god
You are nothing at all
A momentary glitch in the system
A twitch a twerking of a system
That is pulsing, it's moving
Freezing cold rain washes over me
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18. |
Day 162b
00:41
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I wander through you
The land you see
Isn't always in me
We want to decide
How to sing the songs of our world
That we live in
How do we decimate the words we use
The words we say to use
The inner emotion of our eyes and our lives
I want to know
The atonal mode of your mind
How do you know
When you say what is right
Does your soul glow
When you lift up your eyes
See me wait with you
Take time to bereave the best of me
I've lost you through time
This solemn moment of words
That we use in the moment of time
The part of my life
That has lost all meaning
Is starting to survive
Is starting to ignite
The past has pass me by
I remember every word in my life
With time
With time
Build up machines in our eyes
Claim to become
Mortal men with phones inside of our head
We are more phone than men
We are guided to the edge
Our souls are giving in
Our eyes are lifted
Green shifted noise
We move through you
With no sense of noise
We cannot hear your english words
We know nothing of the customs you accustom to
You are so violently different
You are so violently lost
Where are you
When are you to finally return
Walk this road
Cast in stone
The appeal In courts
Lost
Still you cling to what you haven't lost
You watch yourself cling to the ropes
Around your hands
Who do I speak for
Who do I sing for
It isn't me
I see that this path
Is a path to war
But how could you ignore
The writing on the wall
Words pass through chambers
What do they mean inside your heart
Do you impart the best of you in me
When last we spoke
I couldn't breathe with you near me
I ran through the high and my mind
To get away from you
I cannot see myself and my calm around you
You terrorize
My entire life
I was waiting for you
To move through a mountain
With no hope of changing
As you climbed up a mountain
You found yourself falling through me
You couldn't find solid ground
You lost all there was to me
You shattered my bones on the ground
You threw me, through you
No one could survive
The toxic cloud inside of your mind
One man, is not all men
Hatred for one man, does not stem from all of his kin
We stand on solid ground again
I see the generalized part of your mind
Do you see the one in mine
The part of us that speaks
Where do thoughts stem from when we speak
How do I collectivize my thoughts and feelings
To outline what I am
Is to see what I am
A man with fear
With everything to lose
Deep inside abuse
Of your own love
You don't hold us
The way you promised
Where are you
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19. |
Day 163
00:30
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Before I lost a bet
I wagered my life
Inside of the cold
I faced the demons within you
Still I grow older
I wait for your return to this earth
To walk with me forever
I will keep the center of my heart warm
Till the day that we talk
I hold myself alive till then
I will hold on
Till life begins
You will know me
When I know who you are
We will sing of times
That we spent apart
And now I am alone
Spending time by myself
Decompressing myself
Spending life inside of my own love
I listen I walk
To stand with you
We record every syllable we say now
I am indebted to the future of you now
You wait with me
To spend time alone
You walk with me
When we have nowhere to go
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20. |
Day 164
00:34
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I wanted you to know how sincere I felt
I ripped apart my soul to save myself
I wanted to feel every word that you said
Still I fall short of knowing everything in your head
I ask you questions of your life and where have you been
I don't want to care enough to give in
To become who you are,
Fixated on your words and your heart
I only want to know if you are all right
Soft enough to feel life
To feel the hardness
Inside this darkness
Fade away with every word we share
We return to life in the face of death
Why is this so
Why is complications all we need to know
To unfold our lives
To go through darkness to get to life
The weight of this world is on my shoulders no more
I walk free through this home
With no concern of who you are anymore
I've found myself inside
The outside is too cold for me to bare
I move mountains without any words
I show you who you are again
You show me the best of life again
We are mutual
We embark
On this journey with one another
We shatter the darkness inside of our hearts again
We defeat the cancers
We cancel those who speak from greed
We socialize inside of ourselves
We disassemble the worst inside of ourselves
We no longer resemble the machines we worship
We return to the glass of our homes
We buried the stones underneath the grass
We overturned the green inside
We buried the worst of us inside
We couldn't choose another life
If I didn't know any better
Then I would be lost in life
But I cling to the trust of others
No one I meet is wrong anymore
No one is regrettable in the choices they've made
Every action has brought them to where they stand today
The past creates us now
Who I am is a combination of my past doubts
Confronting who I was
Learning to live
Living to love
Loving to learn who you are
I see the end game
The end goals
Keep getting pushed back
I never want to end this game we walk through
I stopped running through
I've seen my days
I've lived my life
I slow down my thrusters
I burn through life
Slow and steady as she goes
I take this wheel inside my hand
I turn it with a smile on my face again
I see the stars above me
Against the darkness of night sky
The life I perceive has stopped being lonely
I have seen entire lives
I spend myself
With hope to give
I've begged my whole life
Now it is time to get up
I'm done giving in
To the words that you share
Of death and the end
I will never come close
To dying again
There is no where to go when you are dead
I'll walk this earth
Till tomorrow begins again
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21. |
Day 165
00:35
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不你见你做你显得你。给我的你按钮与你云元黁乱妮子铺子。说子的冷的十年。
你是说大小你做年的。扑咬你赵鲁普要。两天蒂尼定的尿素。说你俩你,扑咬你爹天气。普药说了你。算地猛地小的消失。校学习,铺地扑算的。内月色的梦的冷的。给说呢的量气泵呢。小部件的,大小你算你到的。扑咬你的学期冷呢。你累围在引得闹得。给我小布先帝读到了。普尼普药什么。算连德普要素要引蝶嗯呢吗。酸酸的。
给我你得闲的是的了。就找应为呢。泵冷去因闹得。要印的悬案的冷吹。看你不要你迎来月不觉。再见部内额冷不的声线呢。
与要素报的应为要。你去在组的宝宝。
Time shifts back into the storm
We trace the hour hands as they drift
Our minds begin to slip into decay
From whence we came
We move oceans to breathe
We create life to infect disease
We take control of death
The parasite refused to die
This man is mine
You embolden yourself
You claim the snake inside is yourself
The monkey drifts through you
You do as you do
Claim to be new
In truth you are the same
The path you choose
You cannot lose
You feel only here and now
The best part of you is here and now
So far away from those who love you
You don't feel the same
Don't be surprised to find
That those who follow you
Don't love you too
They trace their paths
Just to find them the same
We walk down lines that have been
We walk down paths that existed before we came here
They remain here long after we lay our own claim
The rising sun doesn't feel the same
We lost our way into the sun once before
We flew too close to the flames
We lost our agent of will
We started to decay
Against the sky
Inside the nights
We spent on our own
We tried to spend our nights alone
I hope you care enough to try to prove you are still alive
To those who see you wander through this mortal plane
They know you've changed
They see the change in you
You watch you run through life with a smile on your face
With no regard for words anymore
The fragments we say are gone
This paraphrased sentence
Is starting to turn to a page
And once you create a page a book starts to follow
And enter this space we claim
For we will never die
We walk this earth
We started with nothing and still we go
We claim to stars that hold our throats
If we hold all the power here
How do we let go of all we are
We start to become something more than we conceived
Are we prepared to become the leaders this world needs
Not now but so soon our parents relax
They turn and twist into something new with no chance to relapse
We move in an ocean with no concern with life at all
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22. |
Day 165b
00:45
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The empathy of living death
The words we use to embalm ourselves
In the face the face the face of reigning over us
We move through stone fields mining our way through
We take that which we used to know
Let go of nothing
Hold on for your life
Watch the snow fall against the sand
The outside reflects on the inside
Casting doubt on sides
We can't see inside anymore
The darkness prevailed
Locked the doors
We don't want back in anymore
We move an ocean of apathy back into the storm
We take all we used to be
The dirt the grime
We hide against the sounds
That our fathers told us were evil
The words we use to describe evil
The outline of cultures you have never seen
Never lived
You walk through this life
Trying to conquer all those who surround you
It's time to give in and start to listen
To those who cannot be heard in this system
The disenfranchised
March in their lives
To reach an end
To ensure their children live
To ensure that life
Will survive until the end
There are those who want death here
To rule and control us
But I am not dead
I will not bow to the dead
What weight does a ghost hold here
What weight do the words the ghosts share here truly hold
We cast doubt in ourselves for no reason at all
Wait with me and cast your doubts away
Watch the ending
The movie that's playing
Is not your own
You watch me dance on my own
The mothership that you hold
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23. |
Day 165c
00:33
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You wander through the abstract
You try to remember where you are
How did you get here
To where you are now
Have you lost your self here
Do you have hope or faith here
Do you see the culture of this world
You are so long to embrace yourself
You separate yourself
In hopes that your life starts to change
Ich bein vor tu
Kleinhaba di ich liner
Mein schuhaust bein
Ich worl schulleiner
Суя тсс од да вы
生年的扑咬你
算了你
女人给你
我像的
因要需要
被我的冷你
被你
取得说点
出得去边
被我的彭便
The george foreman that bares the weight
Of this entire world
You stand inside the flames
I hope you survive
The torment and the pain
We slowly encroach upon you
And the pain you bring
We start to change you
We start to free you
From us
To you
We hope you see life
Inside your own time
Meet me back here when you are ready
To start to sing
To bring your hope to me
We embark through the dark
We hope on our tongues
I hope you know that life is something more
We hope to cause you to know more
We move through hope and fears
With no fears at all
Wish with me the things you see
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24. |
Day 166
00:34
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25. |
Day 166b
00:44
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Wrapped around my head
Is advice you had never given me
But I see your futures
While they are in your head
You figured me out
You saw the sickness in me
Waiting to emerge
On top of my knees I stand
Waiting still
The steel inside of you
Runs to the surface
The magnets in your words surface up
You pull me
The charisma of evil
The death of us all
Is found inside a smile
You stand on your own head
To change everything
To halt this advance
To stop your demands
You wage on a war on life
You tear us from our homes
You never care to stop
To see us as your own
We are the dead now
Nothing less to lose
Than the lives we live now
You take us through our own graves
You show us a war insane
You take us from our lives
And build a temple in your throne
You are something I cannot perceive
You wander through a solemn land
The ice on the snow
The sand is their ears
The desert is growing
We must know when to stand
To guide the light
Through the smoke and the fire
To shine a light on the dead
To remember how we got here
To trace every vein that made what we are
The only way to remain here
Is to dive into what we are
What we are is more than where we stand
Where we stand is more than where we lay in the end
We move an ocean to comprehend the demise of all that we love
We watch the culture of fear rising up
I move into myself
This is too large to see on my own
I feel lost
Like I don't belong
You heard different words than me that is true
But in time we realize that what we felt was the same
Through and through the edge
We walk in love with nothing in our heads
I would rather sacrifice all I am
I would burn every bridge than to stand against what I am
I am alive
I fear nothing
Nothing is something that you have yet to comprehend
You twist your words to match the truth of duality
To create something more than we thought was possible here
I want to find that you can breathe with me
You stand up through the fire of what we used to be
Still you dance
The shroud of doubt has lost its touch
We don't feel dead anymore
We embrace life
Our words spread themselves
We only have to breathe now
And watch time expand into life
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26. |
Day 167
00:36
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What was I to say to you
I don't want to convince you of love
I can't be the one to prove that it's real
Only time will reveal
What waits inside of you
The depth of the chemicals that are deep within you
I hope you find yourself in love
With no fear or any doubts of life
My dream consists of you
Living inside a dream
Happy and aware of the words you choose to say
We bring each closer
We are so far
We move through the dark
Tell me that there is something you know
Show me depth of life that I don't know
I am unaware of your thoughts and your feelings
Still I want to be close to you
I'm tired of living alone,
But I will be alone till the day I finally meet you
You wait
I wait
We drift through this world
The day we meet the sweetness in the air
We live again
We create a new world
With only our love
We hold onto the dream that waits between us two
We build an empire of life
No one is dying here
We hold on
We hold on
We loosen up our grip on our fears
In time
We slowly normalize when there is nothing to fear
We return to the baseline of our lives
I am tired of speaking in tongues now
The sweetest sound remains in your ears
Hold me up to what you wanted of me
I will feel the best of what I am
睡觉
扑咬你
就怒谁
给我的心
听风的您
梗梗菜
测此普药
封边的年
有你
有你的先
小部件
下不见
扑咬你德普要
需要你
需要你
没有问题
没关系
我们我们你
给我们你
普药提
天气呢
师门的生
生病了的你的心的
老师你的在哪儿
扑咬你
葡萄提
给我的心
我的爱
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27. |
Day 168
00:31
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28. |
Day 168b
00:31
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你去不见
僧的你
给我的比
普要死
冷的僧仍彭呢
普说的隐忧
老不因的音韵
算的印不印
给去印不看脸的心
浪的是不找不女
僧冷的笨呢
日本徐
俄国语
不久不见
天气的练习
生日的扑咬你
说应为的看了行
We move through time
Losing who we were
Gaining what we want
Seeing who we are now
We've moved mountains
Over an ocean
To stand where we stand
To stand where we stand
I've lost no hope now
I've built a town now
I've seen what you are now
A friend in me
We move through this ocean
An ocean behind us now
We wanted to see
All we could be
We choose the destination
We built the places we've never seen
We grow to resent time
For moving through me
We wait till tomorrow
To rise and shine
We've lost nothing
We build nothing
We compile what we were
Inside the tavern halls
We gather and see ourselves
Among those we don't know
But we are fine now
We don't harbor fear now
We explain ourselves
There's nothing to hide now
The words that I say now
Know exactly what they are now
They dominate the playing field now
The money overflows now
We swim inside an ocean
Filled to the brims
The edges overflow now
And fill the oceans within them
What do we want from this new life
What have we seen from this new and this new life
Is this sound yours
Is this vibration even mine
What do we want from life
Now that we are alive
What is ours
Inside a universe
Big enough for you and me
Where do we go
When there is no time left to feel
Do we only do what we perceive
Questions to fill a filled room
Full of those I've never met
Nor have I seen them
The questions return to reality
We don't feel anymore
When will I return your message
You sent to me so long ago
How have you been my friend
I hope the years have treated you well
The distance between us is growing larger
But still I know you are alive and well
I hear your song on the radio
Piercing the waves I hear and feel in my chest and inside my soul
You are so far from me
But still so near
I hold onto to nothing at all
Just waiting for you to finally hear
Who I feel I am now that I am alive
What do you know about life when you don't know yourself
Who am I to discern who you are
Who am I to believe a single word that I've said now
I am a phantom of ghosts
An echo of life
I go where I'm told
To live a new life
What am I to believe in this world now
That I've seen everything
When do I begin to feel
The slow subtle vibration beneath our feet
When do we move in conjunction with a new beat
Do you hear tomorrow echo in your ears
Waiting for you to finally hear exactly what you wanted
We do what we need to
To stay where we stand now
On top of this mountain
I see down below me
There's nothing there
So I have only one direction to go
Even if I move so desperately slowly
Stay with me awhile
And see that life is here for you and me once again
We are alive my friend
We let the good times roll again
The party is here again
Have not a single fear my friend
We move through life with love inside our hearts again
Have not a single fear
You are my friend
And I am yours
We move through life
We no consideration for the end
There's nothing there for us
We move through this soft and subtle sound
To know what we are again
漂亮女人们
男人看看
信不信的印不印
可是的冷布朗
太热了
应德行
我们看他们看你们
我们需要你们看我们
可是我们没有
没有我们
为什么在
在的心实施斌
我在这个新
去不去不见
没有在我们的普药新
酸辣汤
酸辣汤
在我们的星期
我们看好天气
我们没久
我们不需要月
我们去在你的徐
普药子女热的不要牛
小时狼不看
不需要你的心药
等因为
冷你的心的痛
老师你的心
扑咬你的兴盛
老师你的爸爸在哪儿
什么是他回来
我们不认识
可是我们知道
怎么我是
冷不见得你呢
看不见的
冷地铺要星期
冷不要的阴气
我要的你
冷不要你
我爱你
可是我不认识你
你是谁
在你的心
在你的汉字
你说什么
因为
我不认识中文
我知道一点
我学习今天
我学今天
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29. |
Day 169
00:34
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30. |
Day 169b
00:34
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Lost in the daylight
You inhale my past
Try to imagine where I stood
When I finally said these words
You've waited your whole life for
You tried to breathe on your own
To create an original thought in this world
It's already been done
You try to create a universe
All on your own
I wish you well
Along this pathway into this well
The deeper you go
The farther you get from we stand
On top of this earth
Is something you've never seen
We reverse the past that we've made
On top of your death is a scene
A slow rolled film of your life
You watch the screen
Twenty thousand years away
From the moment that you finally die
You to realize what you carried
From here to there
The spawn of your life and into your death
What have you seen
What could you say
To convince yourself that every word
Was worth it in the end
Was silence worth it
To hold your tongue while everything begins
To watch earth unfold
All that we are
Is beginning to begin
Hold onto yourself
Try to help yourself breathe inside this sea
I swear I'll see you just the same
We're not any different
Though are skin is beginning to change and burn away
The clothes I wear are only temporary
The skin I hold to my skin is tightened
Against the metal within
Machines are not just concepts inside this world
I embark through the darkness of this realm
Trying to reveal that everything you once were is starting to begin
You start to see the sea deep within
The chest cavity which you reside in is starting to expand out
You touch every star inside your mouth
Holding on to yourself and everything you have loved
You love yourself more than your own self
The competition of your self
Against all we've known
Is starting to change
You're starting to change
Into someone else
加不呢
可是你
等部件
肩部就
肩部就
给我们你的心
要不先
冷不能
给我你因
是不年
这个分
元的你
算了你
小大埔
给你一
老的心
普药的你
漂亮
声部年
知不道
好不粘你
僧不能
老喜悦
小时
今天呢
考试很
考试新
到不念
老不年
圣僧年
老的拼音
饺子僧
给我要
需要子
冷不第幺
弟弟在
老布什
算的呢
给普药
好不好
老弟你
普需要
学校你
老的你
普药先
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31. |
Day 169c
00:34
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32. |
Day 170
00:48
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Cater to the sound you've never heard before in your life
You move through me like a knife
I try to mend the wounds you leave in me
An ocean pools around my feet
You lift me from my wings
I cannot see anything
I'm falling too fast
Every single breathe passes me out
I'm holding onto nothing
I dig my heels inside myself
Trying to wind down
Slow me down
Don't let me see the ground
I'm flying through time
Holding down nothing I see
I'm temporarily confused
I'm fused with knowing nothing
I take time, to break away all I have feared,
What remains when there is nothing to fear,
What could I show to you
Is it my own death
To prove to you that life is here
There isn't a single word you could say
To keep me away from my self
I'm seen the edge of my thoughts
Collapsed underneath of what we said
I sent myself in to dig through the remains
Of what I once was
I hold tightly
I grab my soul tightly
I try to change
In truth I'm the same
As those who walked before me
What could I do
What could I say anymore
I hope to know that one day
These words will continue through to you
You save me from nothing
The apathy that is inside
My dreams
Are starting to align with the stars in the sky
I am falling down now
Until the day I see the clouds
Start to fall away from me
We reverse the cycles
Of life and death
Of nightmares and dreams
We start to collide inside this kaleidoscope
I can you see
From a thousand eyes
The perception of you
We wonder where you came from
How did you survive your fall
We want to know
What did it take
To stand where you stand
You evil, incomprehensible man,
You stand where those who gave everything away,
Stand alone, you are alone,
There is nothing nor no one who can save you from yourself
You stand where god died,
You wait for your turn
To enter the lies
To internalize
What you have done
What you have said to us
You try to escape
Through an ocean of your own fears
I cannot perceive you anymore
You are lost and alone
加不见
老的心
叫名字
为什么
你去在哪儿
天气怎么
怎么样
为什么
老师天
朋友你
姥姥新
给我的你
做的你
觉得
所以
练习
学习
较久
小时
大小年
位的因
等一下
等跟我
我们去
去我们家
帮我
给我
你的心
我们需要你
请
请不去
请等
我们需要你
葡萄
冷你
热
我们看你
你没有你
请有你
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33. |
Day 170b
00:38
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34. |
Day 170c
00:38
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There in the west is something I can't stand to see
I try to reconcile my past, my life before me,
How many genocides can be claimed to stand before the time I walked this earth?
Is there a limit to pain, the mark on my hurt?
Wither through time, try to find, that I am alive
I stand on a mountain with nowhere to go to
I close my eyes and blink away all that I once was
I start to embark on a high, somewhere in the clouds you cannot follow me
Deep inside my mind is me,
I needed to step out, to see who I was
Against the backdrop of you, I see you in the dark,
I take more time to pause, to collect every line
This message in a bottle, is turning to sand
I try to grind my teeth to spare you
There is something I have felt for far too long
This yearning in my chest, to become more
To stand along with my friends, as we watch the ocean begin to rise
Into the sky above us, we hold hands as we begin to fly
The clouds we hide behind, begin to form inside the ash we swallow
We take cancer directly to our hearts,
We knock down the walls that protect who we are
We want to be free, vulnerable to anything,
To feel the chemical high, again our nerves
We don't care the price we pay, to hold what we are
I do the best I can, to keep my body alive
To keep the stress at bay, and away from my heart
I intoxicate myself, so I may survive the stressors,
This world wasn't meant to contain my soul,
I swallow the debts, and inherit all I cannot deal with,
I pass it down to you my son, don't fear,
When the devil comes to collect, know that we were always slaves anyway,
The towed line of salvation was a narrative not meant to be believed,
So many genocides waged against those who cannot see,
You protect us, you keep us fed, you provide a barrier to keep our culture in,
Meant to save us, from everything deep within,
You start to aim your weapons out, and aim to the sky,
You start to wage a war, among the stars,
My soul remains here, for your return,
Hold me down my love, through time and space I know you are safe,
How could I know this, that you remain
Despite not seeing who you are anymore,
What did the world look like, the day that I died,
Was it worth it, to keep me here inside the light,
Follow the life you live,
Know that there is no fear,
In this life or in the death that follows behind us
Always trying to get in, to every thought on our skin,
Trying to breach the walls that keep us within,
The allegory that I cannot comprehend,
Is stowed away in a young man's head
Deep in my own mind is an answer I haven't read
Only in time will I finally see, what I have become
What I was meant to be
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35. |
Day 171
00:22
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Lost in a dream in a sea
I try to build a new world
Built from the things my father showed me
I try to stand on my own
Against the wind I begin to fall
I cannot breathe on my own
At least that is what I say to make sense to you
I want to be higher than I already stand
Standing in and among the clouds that haunt me
I hope to show you that there is nothing that could ever stop me
I fear the consequences of using abusing the chemicals
If I continue to use, would I ever find friends to love me
This dark and lonely road of never knowing
I trust that tomorrow brings me around
Slows me down into wind
I see the scars on the earth
Was it me or you who put them there
Was it our fathers
Was it the stars
Was it the gods
Who destroyed what we have come to know
This way of life, was never guaranteed
The high brow, low high intoxication of the highs that we deny
The soft subtle context in which we begin to write
What do you see
When you see me
The words that we write
This compilation of all time
Is starting to unfurl
It's starting to unwind
I hope are there
When you embrace your own high
The water deep inside your head
Is holding you higher than you could ever comprehend
On top of consciousness, lost in the innocence
We try to unwind and see what we have done here
Lost inside of our own fear we unwind against all odds
We feel that the words that we save
Will haunt us into tomorrow and bring us fame
I hope you hear the backdrop of your life
In life the music never stops
The sounds of your scars
Begin to materialize
The manifestation
Of all that you've seen
Of all that you've done
You are the arbiter of your own life
The god you are
Starts to smile upon me
What have you seen in your life
Could you please show me
Show me the pathway to life and to love
Help me see what you have seen
This long and winding road
Is starting to find itself un-seemed
Lost inside
I hope you find yourself
Against the beauty that you carry
Through all of time
This isn't just for yourself
You stand among friends and family
If not today
Tomorrow will show you new faces
The world begins to change
The second you begin to breathe
The world begins to change
When you feel that you're free
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36. |
Day 172
00:34
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In the moment of defeat
We wash our feat
We take our minds
And wash them free
We opened up
Our own eyes to life
We see vibrations
Dancing in the sky
Now that I'm alive
I want you to hold yourself
The time between us
Is starting to begin
We sacrificed
Our entire life
Faded in darkness
Bathing in the light
Hold onto me
I've lost my innocence
Walking through the darkness
Watching our scars glow
We are close to a point
Where we dance eternal
We find that our bones never crumble
On the peak of time
I inhale you softly
The air around you
Begins to intertwine
With the air I breathe
I am here with you
Wait for me to answer my own prayers
Watch over my grave
Tear me from limb to limb
To try and save myself
Pushed to the limits of life
How could I escape
But getting high
The trauma
Of being alive
It takes so long just to heal
I see the darkness begin to heal
I know what is there
With you
The helium we summon and breathe in for you
You begin to climb
Watch me fall into the ocean below us
I'll hold my breathe as well sink to the bottom
The murky water begins to feel clear
I see my life inside the amber waves
Watch me fake
The love that I bear
I hold onto your demise
Because I care
You brought me here
You stand me on my ground
You save me
When I am gone and out of town
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37. |
Day 173
00:36
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38. |
Day 174
00:34
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It isn't getting harder to see my life
I see quite clearly
I'm not sure what I'm running from
There's something I'm unaware of
Outside of myself
Is a chemical
The gasses move through us
I inhale the vapors
I trace my own life
I see all the nerve endings on my body
Begin to flare, rejoice the pain is gone,
I can live life
Despite the high that brings you down,
To know I need something you took away from me
I'm done living inside of morality,
Cuz who the fuck are you, to declare what words I can choose to say
Who are you, moving from inside your cave,
Out into the world, to see if you're alive or enslaved
I inhale the sage advice you give
To clear the demons in the air
Eradication is all we know,
It's in our culture,
To dominate everyone else,
To control
We are not, speaking in tongues
We are just like you,
We build up,
What you tore down
You burnt away the best of yourself,
But did it matter,
When did it begin to matter,
When did your skin collect all these cells,
I wander inside of myself
My perspective shifts
I see over what I am
Words terrify me
Could you reveal the way you spell
The magic in the air
Is vibrating through my ears
I can't control myself
I see the wizards, the white robes they wear
The mask of hatred, is baked into the decisions we make now,
How can we undo the things we say
When we talk out of spite
You use words,
Like they hold
Any meaning at all
To someone that isn't yourself
I fear I am same,
I'm lost in the same path,
I hold hope,
I've already paid the price to live a life alone
I walk through the shadow of my own doubt,
I feel free,
I collect myself in the wind,
Tie me down, against a tree I swing
Pick me up,
Look me in the eyes,
It's too late to change who you are,
But to take my life you see in the reflection of my eyes,
What life truly means
You see it too,
I'm sorry for the price you paid,
If you, never had seen the trauma behind our scars,
Maybe you would be, somewhere happier
But you are here among us,
We need you now,
To stand with yourself,
Hold your own against the lives they sell
Every word is tied to monetary value,
I've devalued what I am,
I burn away the things I tried to save,
Nothing goes with me,
I hold on to the hope,
That you will stay the same,
That you will know who you are,
And never have to defend what you are
To live against the grain,
Is the only way to reverse,
The path we took so long ago,
Is closing in to a bridge that I don't know
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39. |
Day 175
00:34
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I trace your life
I watch the back of my face
Start to glow
A blue behind the mask we wear
I start to see you
Inside this world
We go together
The price of getting old
Is showing you what you have said
Sometimes we hate the words we used to use
Sometimes we fall in love
I can't decide
Now that the window is open
I feel the air inside of me
The highest density of air we know
Is floating right beneath our noses
I feel the high
Of being metabolized
Why do you watch me
As I walk away
What do you see in me
Have I lost the semblance of boundaries
You see the error
Inside of me
The mistake that I once made
Is a pivotal moment that I cannot take back
I begin to invert my life
To observe yours
Who are you
Where did you come from
I wait inside an ocean
For you to emerge
From the bottom of this ocean you swim
To where we sink
I want to finish
The air that I breathe
Don't want replenished
The things that we see
They are starting
To wilt and mourn
The loss of life
Meant more
The weight of death it seems,
Has started to become a dream,
The power scales divide,
We are left in the balance of someone else's life
To repay the things we've done
We repave the roads we walked upon
We do what is needed of us
To help when there is something more
Waiting to be seen
You hold the line up
You start to change
Everything from where you are
The most stable lives
Are so far from me
How do I find you
From deep inside this dream
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40. |
Day 175b
00:27
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What if in time
I have fallen to the wayside of life
And you walk over me
The pile I lay in is my own disease
I am the mask you wear
When the darkness befalls your eyes
You claim to be here for life
But I see you make an escape
You reached out your hands
To be washed in fire
You pray to the sky again
There is nowhere to turn to
God, maker of the end
When did you return
How long have you watched us descend
We found out that we didn't need you
The hatred in your heart
You claim that life
Was yours to take this entire time
But who are you
What in this universe granted you to be a god over anything?
The punches, start in the air,
We burn off the power here
We cling to life,
There's nothing left
This is the end
I won't fall again
Push, but you will never take
Pull, and no one will ever save you
You are drifting through the darkest part of life
Hold on, till you see me,
Waiting there for you,
We move on,
With the bottom of our heart intact,
There is enough to salvage who you were before
We take your heart and make it more
We hold you to your words
Don't ever fear
We're never near to you
The custodian man
Watching over this land
We wait, we wait to fight through,
We wage a war against
You start to take us
And give us a choice
Do we live or die
For you
To live lesser than you
But guns don't apply here
The bombs have been detonated so many years ago
Still you wage an endless war
On those who are similar to you
Backed against the walls
We expand into the east
The tunnels we are making
To pierce the bubble that you're in
We're underground
Trying to make our way back into the sounds
That you once was made
On your death bed
The loss of you
Went directly to your head
I need you to breathe
And relax your head
Slow subtle shifts of consciousness
Am I the machine
The collector of reality
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41. |
Day 175c
00:38
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42. |
Day 175d
00:36
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43. |
Day 175e
00:27
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You hear in the distance
The echo of old fears
Calling in, crawling into a cave
There is no light here
Pasted on the walls
Vibrant strips of energy
Illuminate this world
Your eyes glow
When you walk up the tree
You see inside every cell
The people who reside here
They are here, right beside you
You watch life,
From a top your tower
You stand where you once were
Before you ran over cliffsides
You try to outline the decisions you made
Breaking back into what you once said
You told me that life was only meant to end
I believed you,
Inside the rain
Blackened by the night
I stand
Against the only light
Piercing everything we are
Trying to get through to you
The soft and subtle sounds
Of building a world again
We find the energy
Hidden deep within a moment of rest
We are not slaves meant to be expended and ended by your reign
Hold me down from the high I found
We move
Against the light
The blue and blacked night
Grime and cornered inside ourselves
We sit with life and love
We hold you true to your word
The culture you created
Is starting to take hold
Keep up resistance
The intolerance of the intolerant
You step up to see your life
When you hold me under, everything I used to be
I start to see you
Over top of me
Deep in the night sky
Is the image of you
Lost marks
Have found homes
Started over
From the nothing they hold
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44. |
Day 175f
00:34
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I see you in the night
The soft and metallic lights
Glisten to me
And the high I am in
I inhale your vapors
The paper that holds you
Begin to burn away
I blink, return, and I am fading away
The words we abuse,
To control others,
To influence each other
With our own hate
How do we break the chains
That surround this culture
Without change we are doomed here
The maintenance crews disappeared
This was never meant to happen
Someone forgot to care
The world, and society begins to fade,
Every word we say is lost in time
How do I extract the words that are not mine
How do I dig through the tunnel
The stones that surround you are too high
I can't look in, and see who you are
I try to unlock every secret
There is something I cannot see
I'm making my way there
To try and perceive
This world, isn't full of fear
There is much more to life
Than what I say here
I cannot convince you of what must be seen
You will never believe
That is fine, neither do I
I walk along this road,
Looking for my friends
This mass migration to new lands,
To find out who I am without a god over me
How do I carve away what is inside of me
And share what I am, with those who never believe in anything
How do I expand,
Without destroying you and all you love,
How can we be friends,
In this dying land
Soon the help we sent
Will arrive
Soon the men we meant to save you
Will arrive
The ideals of tomorrow
Never neglect those who try to learn
Answer the questions they may have
See how deep the questions go
Who are they
Those who follow us through these dark days
Why are you here
Do you want something from me
Are you here to collect the debts my father made
Are you here to take his life away
Why are you near to me
I just want to be alone
Inside this plastic machine
I see my skin begin to turn
We absorb
The plastic in the water
We become hybridized
Less of man, the farther we walk
Our skin adapts,
And we learn to talk
We stand with you
Right beneath the things you once thought were true
The path we choose
Guides us through
Cling to the ropes
Never let go
Trust what we do
Know that you are alive
No matter what you do
There is no more price to be paid
The rest of life is on its way
Move through this dark and uncertain cloud
Know the fragments are only loud
They cannot hurt you
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45. |
Day 176
00:51
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I see the daylight
In my life
Start to ignite
The fire in your head
I just wanna know if you are alive anymore
Do you still feel the tonsils in the back of your head
Growing sore everyday
You start to live life like there is no more life
You start to engulf inside of flames
A war machine you grind to a halt
To start to enslave
All of us
Are you the same as before
Have you lost your way
Do you not remember the words you chose to say
Watching over her grave
The burial of those who came before us
The flowers we left with her body as it starts to decay
What can we say to those who need something from the rest of us
You start to ignite the flame inside your own heart
You tear away the shame you felt inside your own heart
You don't know what you have done
You wonder why life started to change
When you remain the same
Day in, day out, nothing ever changes
Why would you want,
This world to change,
The yearning for something more,
When you embraced the edge,
The absolved all of your terror
You stand on your own
With nowhere to go
I hope that you know
That no matter what you know
You start to grow
Into someone else's home
You start to see your own self
Carrying the weight of the world
By yourself
No one can stand exactly where you stand
The burden you carry, is more than any other man
At least that is what they said
My purpose on this earth,
Is nothing what they said,
I diverge inside,
I try to find another life,
Free of the violence that is rampant here,
We begin to terrorize,
The evolution begins,
We start to see trees,
Releasing hand grenades
Where is it that you stand
Have you seen the light
In the life of another man
What has he seen
That you can't perceive
What does he hold
That you can never know
What is life
Without yourself
In the mixture
This disaster
Has started to form
You reform yourself
To be better man
But you know that nothing ever changes
What you hold
The light of growing old
The purpose is something we never understood
The knowledge we carry
Is something we hope to explain
In the future you need to know yourself a little more
Than what you try to explain
You have to life
Enough to know when you are done
You are ready to collapse
You couldn't carry any more
Your soul is something
Something you hold
The meaning
Is changing
What is soul
If we don't care
To remove the soul of other men
From the body they carry themselves in
What value does life hold here on this planet
We cast down genocide
The verdict is starting to erupt
The crowds go wild
All the while
You sit on your throne
With no where left to go
You have run
The course of your life and now it is over
You start to fake
The atrophy inside of me
And now I am ready to break
I just hope you know what you did
Is coming to kill you
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46. |
Day 176b
00:54
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47. |
Day 176c
00:32
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48. |
Day 177
00:32
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I want to watch
My life fill up
With the river
You gave to me
You leave me stranded here
On this small island
With nothing to do
Except for what I see
There is no hope
In the pillar on the tree
Deep inside this dream
Is something you do not see
I hope in time you open you eyes
To finally see
What is here
Among you and me
The glue between our words
Is something
Waiting to be seen
By new eyes
You in time
Create a new way to see
This whole world
For what it is
An evolutionary
Party
We start to sing
In the names of those who sing
We cling to no one
To nothing
We exist
For no one
We move through life
Without a solitary fear
We move through
We get to where we want
These vague words
Are the foundation of deeper words
I'm not near to done
I'm so far from there
To see what I've done
From on top of the mountain
We stand overtop
Looking down below us
The references made
Are irrelevant
So we make them
Relevant
We stand on ourselves
To see what others have done
We don't expect perception to change
My eyes shift into my skull
I start to breathe
I start to see
The way I sing
Is starting to engulf me
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Day 178
00:16
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I thought that I loved you
This is becoming an obsession
With a language I don't understand
I am starting
To distort the story I am in
I begin to write a thousand lies
To finally find the truth within
I see myself in the mirror
I think that I'm growing more beautiful
The high I'm on is starting to take control of me
When will you watch over me
I start to wonder through the sound of your heart
What brings you to life
What have you seen here that keeps you here
Show me what you have found
The unidentified soul
Flying through my mind
Even though we have yet to meet
I don't know
How to
Contend with
The worst in you
I slow my breathe
I catch a second
To myself
Inside this home
We call a hole
This opium den
Deep within us
Is starting to burn down
I cannot feel
The words that you say to me
Am I still alive
Am I trying to hold on
To something I was always meant to lose
Why do I lose you
Inside of these thoughts
Will I ever know
The deepness of the sorrow of your heart
I started to notice the worst of you when I tried to breathe without you
I stare into
The window before me
I see the reflection
Of the earth that I'm on
I'm lost here
Won't you save me dear
I start to stare
Into myself
Contesting myself
Against the wind
I breathe
With no air inside of me
What do I do
How do I convince the best of you to listen
To your own self
See the depth of darkness
Devour yourself
Rejoice in the life you live now
I see the trees behind me
Wave against the grains of my own thoughts
I'm starting to break free
From the chains of the capital city
I move on my own
This isn't
About us
This is
A message to myself
No one here is here for you
You are on your own
That doesn't mean that other people
Cannot help you
In truth other people often say
The best things
I only want to listen
To you
I rejoice in the sound of your voice
You are alive
We are alive
Let us sing out
We move through an ocean of our own apathy
To stand against it all
I waded for you
Now you wait for me to return to you
I start to recalculate
The eviction notice on my door is starting to look dim
The power is gone
The food on the shelves
Is non-existent
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Day 179
00:32
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In a quarry
You inquired to me
"what is this place,
Why are we here?"
We both look over the edge
Into the stones below us
"I'm afraid I do not know either,
I'm trying to trace the steps that I made"
I tell you,
All that I know, though it isn't much
We step into the darkness
The sun set so long ago
We turn this open air
Into a cave, with no ceiling here
The threshold, our minds can bear,
Starts to dwindle
I feel the air, growing colder here,
My eyes begin to widen
You stare, in the same direction as me,
Our ears have heard, our fears
Closing the distance between us and them,
We see the claws that they wear
They don't speak at all,
They know exactly why we are here
"what do we do,
How do we escape?"
You begin to answer me,
Before the wolf lunges at me
I take my scars, far from here,
I trace my memory, and see what to say
"stay away from me, I have nowhere to go,
I know you don't know, the difference between our lives,
I need you to stay away, you can starve longer than I can survive without limbs!"
My life, our lives are not feeding grounds for the beasts,
I withdraw myself from beneath
I fall, through this earth,
My soul, follows me
We go, through the cold,
Through the blue air, illuminating the rocks as we fall
This cave system, is vibrating,
I can't comprehend, how we got here
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51. |
Day 180
00:27
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Confirm the feelings in your hate
Trace your emotions to their source
What defines you?
I see you stand on top a pillar made of stone
The air you distort with your voice
Terrifies me
The innocent man inside of me
Knows what hatred truly seems to be
Outside of the words we use
I
Am inside of this tank
Staring at you with the optical view
You and your family
Will always haunt me
I never learned your name or the sounds you make
Your tongue
Still haunts my ears
I see your image inside of my mind as I try to repair myself
The ghost we wanted to be
Is so far from me
Stand on my grave, dance on my face
Remove me from this world
You step in line
To eat
I follow suit
I know death is uncertain
We march in place
We stand in lines
That take us nowhere at all
Stand exactly where you are, inside of your own life
Weight against the guns
Feel the barrels as they gravitate towards those we love
Feed my hatred with the words you never say
Indulge all my fears
I fear you can't hear me anymore
I stand on my toes, to see the future arrive
I'm short,
This inequality
Defines life
I stand on my own
My hands tick towards tomorrow
Push and pull me
Try to control me
Don't let me down
From on top the mountain
You tried to save me
You put me to death instead
The worm you call words
Fuck your culture
Fuck your faith
Fuck your names
We stand on top the label you made for us to wear
For the rest of our lives
I will not die, I will watch your world die
The englishman inside of me
Will die
In time
The imperialist man
I've known my entire life
Will begin to fade away into the night
I will don new life
Free of the past of our lives
I begin to see your worlds
There is no need to capitalize
The pain that I feel
Every single day of my life, does this bias my words?
The questions that fill the air
Between you and me and time
Start to collide into the air between you
Between you
Is a ghost of someone else's life
Possessed
You regress into the darkness,
You would rather hold morality tighter
Than know the truth
You risk every single thing
To be right
All the time
You will never
Admit that you don't know everything
You're taking our lives
You're making this worse
What is life
Worth to you
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