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Of Amber Skies and Of Emerald Oceans

by I Am the Cave

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I remember seeing His name on your arm, I thought You had seen enough pain to understand others, But what A shame to find out how little You had learned in life, How little You love yourself We dive hand in hand, Down this well together, But I smile for You, I misspoke when I said I didn't love you, I Love You so, Wakening anxiety nightmares fuel the need to sleep, Nothing Tears Me from bed to floor faster than knives in calves with my best friend, Gone from me, I Am stranded on this planet with You, No matter how distant I attempt to go, To the last words of my Children, She will always haunt me, California called home to Me so I could find a piece of the Man I needed to be for You, When I was taken from Here, An Infant I didn't know I would owe so much debt to Your vanity, Burdening and Triumphant that We will never meet Outside of Your window as You waste light A lot of the day, But I won't die that way, None of us should, Yet we do Return To plague the Pharaohs land, Hourglass Inverts time to enable us to play Our hand, We must stop folding, Stop drifting in denial alone, These people were born free, Your should've known this was coming Since the very beginning of the end We twisted in two, Divided till We become whole inside of You
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I just miss You, But who are You now? What do You believe in? How do You believe in yourself? God how do you feel justified to try and take my life when We cried together suicide, God without You, Who will guide me now? To the Depths I go Goodbye to the latter, And I love You to the rest of what's Left of my wife, I swore I'd never see the day Where love between Us fades, But here We are counting up the lies Between several different men in fact, And the data shown shows that no one Knows who You really are, And it terrifies me to think that every Ounce of love that I have ever known Has come from you, Still I pray someone comes to save You, before You show them who You really are deep inside, You fear the worst in Yourself, Ironically You make it life, You bring the demons from beyond the Walls on the backs of those who You hope To keep out, Though with every stone they lay, They will realize eventually that The walls were only built around themselves, While You roam freely Hadrian, Hadrian, Hadrian Dreams Hadrian, Hadrian, Hadrian, Dreamed of A new world
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I sink into the wind, Waiting for someone to finally rescue me, But what I didn't know is that no Could have saved me but Myself, So in the interest of time, And a stake in My life, It's time to remove you I prayed to take away the pain, To hold it ever closer, While breaking ties before timely Suicide in every word we've screamed together, I've gathered the rest of the remnants In my chest to stand up and defeat you, Past this tomb I'll never even say Your name, This I swear, To Your brother and Parents, Send soon help to calm the hell She's spun out of control "How sick is this? Answer me a Question How sick is this?" To Bottle Fists while the world Around Us dying, I am alive, Within every vein is a city, Seemingly never casted in light, I'll meet You there, Neither of Us care enough to try, Well I lied, I will become fine
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I step into a funeral home for a tuxedo, The night is right, The moon approves, It proves a point that even the moon can change, It can fade across the horizon before Our Eyes, Looks like years of life, Mirrored over pitch blackened lakes, You've never been to Waiting for Me to wake, Why do they stay, Hold on, Care? Try to belong to You, But never wanting to be apart of the Solution to anything dearest, Come and take the reigns from Me, It's flooded and I know the rain is near to Me, And I fear nothing more than Your perfume across the wind, Everything that could bring Me back to You, Still I know the way home, Way home, Is out of the way, Home is where We go to create Conscious thought again, Where Am I to finally Call My Own? Because I can't give into settling, I know the Mountains around Me Are made of Gold, Still I want was once beneath The Mountain of Coal Again
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I would love to walk up an aisle, Right beside Your decrepit smile, In truth I can't deny how little I've had let go of You, I never thought I would fear Relapsing With My best friend, I know who You really are, Once the volcanic ash in Our lungs has cleared, Who is left to declare each other sane? Am I insane to care so little that I was Bound to crumble every waking bone in my body From the pressure to end life with You? How could You turn to Me, whisper so calmly past this conversation, That the black holes in Your skull can never Be what matters, "I love You but I must meet you in another life" We are the Ones made to take new medicines, To enslave Us quietly, But We don't eat, Is there even a moment to sleep long enough The bills unpaid, The magnet holding cliffhangers From an evening of wondering if tonight Is the final note, Or will I still find them once We catch up On rest? You were screaming suicide towards Me, So I tried to steal the Locusts blighting Your farm, Now I Am constantly fearing everyday I'd find You laying the carpets stained maroon depths, In Death no longer can I swim, And sadness follows You like Death Follows a plague, We've done the research and Having found a way to undo What You did to Us, The knowledge to repair Our Own Cells Again, To what they were before We Chose to lay comatose, Inside of Our allergen free suicide note
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I Carelessly accept a whisper, So dark it carries on the wind, It watches me slowly fade As I struggle to breathe, If the world just gave in and took me I would be free again, If the ever-scending words of the Angels above would stop calling me, I would feel so desperately alone, If You gave A fuck about what We were before the changes, You came and deceived Us From Loving each other, It's not who We were anymore, If You were to say only Son, I love You today, Would You be lying to Me? I don't even know what humans are anymore, I am alone inside of this shell, I've been trying to get out for so long, I am A ghost, It wasn't You who was sad after all, It was me who was the sad ghost, Waiting for You to come home, But every time We want to fight, We just disagree, That's what We are, That's what We want to be, That's what We strive to say We'd become, The Ones that We once loved, But just telling the truth proves That once it's gone it never Returns for widows like You
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If the sun were to cross toward The moon and collide would Your stars enter My mind and darken Your eyes, Or would I fade so violently into the night sky above? Or should it be a wish across Your heart? I thought the difference between Us Was what life needed to be, At least for a moment, To be forever wrong, If I was to say what I'd become for you, No matter what the case may be, It will never be enough to forgive What We've done to other people, To Sam and Tanna, Audri, Rebecca, I'm sorry for who I chose to be, To Brandon, and Tyler, Both lost fathers, Know that Your brothers are trying to be everything for You, Remember that they lost Him too, Be there for them when They can't support You, It is finally decided to rebuild back vigorous Vibrations within every single One of Us, Slaves to a system We cannot ignore, How long before We are deemed terrorists, For what we have been writing, Not long I fear, You should have joined Me here, But You are treading on water, And now it's time to let You drown Under Your sorrow, Goodbye to You, I'll never say goodbye tomorrow Because there is today, I have to be the one to break away this chain Latching Me to You in every vein, You feel these words, They pulsating catalysts in your psalms, Read them to see the cause of every chain event That has been leading to a significantly worse overdose Than before, In the ICU You know you are the one Crawling on the floor to get home, But there is no one to take You back this time, Your wish isn't mine
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Serramonte 03:14
I wait on the rings of Your mind, As We chase the stars into the cloudy night above what We are, We expect easy answers, But We have to be the Ones who answer, Stop Dying for easy things, Be who You are, Everything You see will glow Gather in time and space, And remove in a way the pain, The best cure to life Is to stop waiting for the next chapter To accidentally happen, Just make it happen, See what happens, See who's happy and lead Yourself to where they are And you will live healthy Breathe, Breathe In, Breathe, Now let it out, Forget every scar for the moment, But remember often that they comprise Who You are
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Ty Diro 03:57
I oblige the diplomatic sanctions of every Situation I put Myself inside of, It starts to pass away, These shores are aging go to them, Before the point where everyone Was only counting days, Don't forget the moments beyond that, Ask Strange questions, Turn a failure to a lesson with time again, Where are We here? Set sail to new lands, But how far can your slaves row Before they turn their oars on You? If alcohol fueled the Romans across the Atlantic then We've all been Enslaved all along, It's okay to not have seen it at first, Go and be the One who tries to tear this feeling out of their chest, I know You feel this burning hole inside this world, You let it go Just for once in life help to Fight defend the world around You, Defy what they sell You, And now You are real, They want to feel what You are burning inside, Burning to kill them in every fiber that you write, Because You're right, Or are I biased by the high? I don't know, At least I don't feel like dying anymore, Then again every moment is a fucking fall back line of the past, I miss My home, I need someone else near to really Feel alone I know what it means to want to die I know what it means to live a lie I want to know what it means to be free I know it starts with loving God inside of Me Despite what the devil is telling Me to try to be, But to be perfection is out of my realm of possibility, How can a flame live without a spark? So may these embers ignite the light in Your heart, "You'll never find your way through the dark" But now look where We are, Life's light overcame hatred, Death cannot contain love anymore
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I read the books You wanted Me to, To be a better man, But I knew their words would never satisfy the need to grow old and still love You, Because You are so fucking wicked, Why are You? In three words I question Your entire existence, How does that make You feel? I suppose if I was You I wouldn't Connect to a single word written here So what is the point to write A self-addressed confession to Yourself That is wasn't just Your cousin You watched get buried, God You disaster Did You even go back to Her With any promise of hope That it would be a long time Before You were with Her again, Or did You lie? Do You remember reality? Minutes, Days, Years, They divide in to get out, Mother misses being tricked Into contemplated remissions Of cancerous Lung Tissue, A thousand Suns Couldn't Match the Separation Of how tightly I was fused to You
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Hello Today 02:20
And then there was three, We sat so closely in this cave, It is Our home, Outside of these walls I know I Am Still whole, So come with Me, To another place no farther than A thought from here, Where the obelisks bleed rain And temples sing heresy, With Meadows aching as their Stones grow older, Stars Withering so quickly to dust If you blink they are Us Taking Our turn interned here, Still I cannot stay thinking A piece of the night sky was Gone, When in truth it was never even there, So what was imagined? So now We sit alone again, Our backs to God, As We begin to spin away into the dark, But here we are, Hand in Hand with reservations to an emergency room, These table tops growing colder by the second, I'll see you on the other side of the line neither of us truly feared, Because I fear we are the same
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Depths 02:31
The depths have broken free, The oceans collapsing, A planet is drowning, The cities that I've been dying for You to see, But now You're so far from me, Every chance We have to go back Is just a lie, A lie to You and Me, But that's what We were before The changes occurred in You once gravitated towards telling Me We would be married one day The world would be less blurry With You on My eyelids, Still We are blind, And when We try to go away, We simply gravitate into an-others Orbit dearest, Who are We? Why do We betray the thought of ever Letting Go? Because deep inside We both know, We are addicted to this pain, We have yet to ever change, It's Who We are, It's what We must be, That is the truth, Sorry for telling You, You had to hear it But now You're finally livid In every waking moment, You fade away, Take Your heart, Mixed emotional states, Some drugs You've been Abusing from the start, While You trace veins Razor blades call it art, But Your canvas is still barren, How could I be more Transparent to You? I want to die with You In My arms again But still Fuck You
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I told You I was dying In Our rooms, You said okay, Stare off past the limits of What no One else imagines, Searching far into every fiber When we were next to each other, I don't want to bear Your grave in My heart, So it's time for Us to Depart at terminal twenty-three, If I was to look back At You in the same light as Before the time Our car ride Grows silent since neither Us Could mutter I love You, That You would break down and cry, So You did, So I did, So many times pass, We metabolize again, I know I am the one who wants to die, So why do I necessitate the need To be the one to catch You if You fall? You said You would catch Me, I fell instead without You, I can struggle on My own, But this struggle without You is unknown, I recognize You were a necessary mistake, But in that time I threw Away three years of My life with you, It was just a memory, I understand misery comes From experience, So I experienced You wholly And I'm done with You, For the time I know, You follow Me inside When I close off to The outside world, Play this on repeat, I promise redemption It is time for Us to Start feeling again, To stop blaming others For what We are doing To give Ourselves an Excuse to hang from the center Of Our minds, To stop wandering, To settle down for now
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ET 05:24
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Underground these tunnels Have collapsed, It is time to determine out Our own way from these chains, Tired of waiting from command, We, Hands shaking from The cocoa drip, March endlessly through the Same state of mind, Through every corridor You As a kid would never had enough Time to explore this prison, There is no time to explore life With other people anymore Why are We stagnant in this cave? Millions of centuries pass And I watch it terraform creation This mistake We have been made In, To rebuild Earth must be Our Purpose, To forsake Our planet while We sink with it, Mars, God of war, Cannot sustain Us, So few will go, Hope in the seeds of Eden, How can We hope to leave behind The demons of humanity, This is still survival of the fittest And those who are thinking are Leaving this planet, Without You or Me, Please God take Us with You, There is a mutual agreement to Believe in Man once more, I see it, But no one wants peace, Not in themselves, To imagine if this is how black holes form How long before this world is consumed By Our weight is unbearable, Unable to even stand, How long before You miss Your toes? Instructed to consume more, We do, Like a sheep in a meadow Constantly eating ignoring reality, While beyond Our fences bodies Are accruing and all We See is a plain text number Broadcasted across pictures in half seconds, But every number is a name, A family, Your daughter, A brother, Your sons Are already only numbers On the war boards, A generation infatuated with Kill to death ratios, How many billions must die Before We realize We are the Ones doing this? Welcome Back to the Back of Your mind, For the worst of times, I will be there to hold You, You don't have to be there to hold Me, Though I would appreciate if You tried at all, But that's just Me
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Nashism 02:52
I step into Your room to try To find out how quickly I remember why I'm forgetting Who We were, To who We are now, I propose a toast, May we never let slip our conscious Ability to love go, Or did You whisper grow Once the door was closed? I slowed My growth in life To pretend that I am fine, But I am not alright, None of Us are, Though the thought is nice, Slowly I've learned to breathe again And having taken Us as far as We could ever go, Diverge forward into whatever You think is fair, The value of a dollar doesn't matter As long as You care, You Won't be alone anymore, We can't keep dividing anymore, Enter the Halls of Change, Wait for the bells to toll, But never the one to ring it, Let it echo to the world That We are Alive, Unite to Die as brothers
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An earthquake across Your dormitory floor, Clinging to the Lights The night brings the Day In less, In what seems like seconds I stopped feeling at all, It was the world distorted grey, I had died, Yet You live like The lovers You adopted weren't The cause of it, I stopped counting days, And now years have gone by, Still sitting on Your bed With no excuse to survive the winter, I doubt You even miss Her, Because if someone misses You, Then how can You explain to the reflection Why You make life around everyone near Such a burden To Deal with, When You are the only one creating This reality for Yourself, Hell is a manifestation of Man's insatiable desire for a place To live wicked, Even sinners need shelter too, You shall be welcomed a Queen no more, No longer will I think of Your name, I'll bury the thoughts of You in Unmarked plot of land, I'll visit rarely, I say that now, But I plan to dig deep, To grow trees there so something Good will come of it, Returning often to mend and nurture, To see how strong We Have become without You
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Turn the r in artistic Upside down and draw the line Up the Y axis till both towers are leveled, And look You're Autistic Now, Ha Ha, Don't You get it? Please God get this, Someone get this, Any chance You have To remember what You are inside, Just get it, Oh get it, God must get this, Any chance You are alone Inside of Your Hell, Please get this and the world Is Your own Anytime You go inside of Your Mind just try to get it Get It, Get It, Get it, In Your mind and Each change You face, That leads to escaping pain, Accept it and get up and go get it, Why are You hiding behind the Scars You've made? Upend Your skin and Up underneath of every vein You are strangling with the fat, You are taking Yourself and You're Killing Your cells, Slowly but surely, You are unsure of Your health, But You don't really care much at all, You are unaware that You are Okay inside of the pain, It only lasts so long before The rain must turn To the sun in the sky and it gives, And it must break away Your sorrow, But in that time You are Aware of nothing more than What ails You to become aware Of every cell, You try to remember what You are made of, You trace Your scars with razor blades, You tear Away communities, You divide them, So selfish You are the blood staining The carpet behind You, It trails You on the paneling You built around this house, I cannot Enter, I see the lights they're on, But no one is apparently home, Because every time I knock, There is no answer, I want to love You, But to love You is cancerous to the Mind I've grown aware of everything You ever said, I've compiled the lists of what needs fixed In every situation, I've grown so strong to know that I am just a separated atom, I found My other Half, Now it's time to move forward alone, To know She is everything inside of Me, On the surface She wears it so well, Talk to Her, Want to kill Yourself within An instant Her mouth imitates The vowels in I love you, It's in the morning now, And still I am awake, I'm bored So I'll call You, I'll tell You I'm running out of time, It's growing through My mind, My imagination is growing So rampantly large, I cannot ascend with You, You wanted to fuse together, Become a singularity that day in the car We tried to overdose on medicine, On medicine We bought over counters, The cheaper the better to end life with You, The quicker the easier, I know there is no pain In a hospital bed, Still Our families watch over Us as We grow into Decay, They see it in Our face, Everyday they say nothing Because they understand every Single piece of what it consists of, It consists of them too, Every mistake You have ever Made has been made before You, Learn to accept that this world is changing, You can change with it, So Please accept that not Every change is beneficial to what Is really needed in saving In what we want to be, And what We want to be, Is to be alive in Every word We write
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"You see that man there? The Hatred in His eyes? The corruption of His empire growing Before He takes Our lives And Our families to new age Concentration camps Louis, Louis, XVI Louis, Louis, Time to die Louis, Louis XVI Louis, Louis The time is right" The capital's slaves return home Unaware of the prison they rest in, You think this is peace, But that's only Your perspective From where You stand, Skewed by media, Taking piece by piece, Lie by lie, Forging the truth from Embers that smell of sulfur, The trickery of lucifer below Trying to take this world for His own, You don't believe Me because with a Mask of calluses He sits on His throne Built from the wealth of Exploiting You and Your family with temptation, You pray to God while feeding satan and His family of false idols You worship endlessly while Neglecting the health of our planet, Our Eden, A gift from God Meant to sustain Us, But all we think of is Ourselves While the radiant pressure in the Air is dominating every frequency We sense unconsciously, You expect free will but freely You ignore the opportunity To be Yourself, To experience something that Isn't know to the universe, The rampant radiation is causing Rapid mutations within our cells And the constant stress laying Destruction to our immune systems, Allowing colonies of cancer to flourish into cities, City states that see no border, They will keep expanding until They consume all that matter in You, Stop to reflect that We are doing the same, We have become cancer, So how long before the chemo treatments, Flood in and descend upon Your homes, You feel innocent, But ignorance is the greatest sin, It's time to move forward, To redefine who We are, Time is growing faster to How relative We are to the next chapter, You want the end? Well Here We Are How many metaphors do You need to explain the metamorphosis We are about to enter? Our second genesis, But without Earth We Won't survive very long, Our home base while we multiply Meiosis Into the unknown
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Tripping Up 03:13
Return to the reality instilled Upon Us by Our fathers, Falling farther from the graces Of the Grey faced collectives that agree That You are too much to handle But You are unable to Deal with this alone, Every admittance of Failure to contain enough Willpower is met with unguided Anger from who You thought Was meant to love You, But A simple sentence in Your mind Riddles around and it dances slowly In their head until the next dose Of whatever the fuck could Tear them from this planet, The universe is aware and They are scared of it, But they are the universe, Of course it's fucking scary, I fear the moment out of Bed thinking of where I am, Surrounded by confused and unconcerned Reflections I elect a new president to Run myself before My actions lead me to Unknowingly killing Myself, Consciously I am descending Down the ancient cave dwellings, But slowly scaling the crevices as they Branch into what compose a soul, I am sure to find a way out Of what is mistakenly called a home, To rebuild reality with a new vision, To open up vulnerable whole, Even where no one is digging deeper, Show them there is something beyond here, It is here, Just around the corner peering in every night As You sleep, The world around us is evolving, Evolving around Your decisions, To decide to live with it, We Are the Ones meant to define life's meaning
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Constantly going to the store, Domesticated to enjoy buying more Of what we cannot afford, How many different meals have You Had this week? Is it more than three? I'm so weak from working The months? The years? They add up quickly when You never challenge the idea Of waiting till tomorrow, Today is all You must know, To be aware of Your surroundings, I don't understand the scale, But there is something so powerfully aware And it's drawing us closer to heaven, Because We are atoms divided Contained in human vessels Just trying to ascend, But suffering is needed to begin again, Take time, Treat Yourself to life, Set Yourself up for the next by Living wholly in this one first, If schizophrenia is a disease then I'll wait in line for cyanide gas filled prisons, Their final solution to enslave humanity, Come stand with me, Set Zion free, Let's smile since they Can't assimilate Us all, We've come too far, We've Grown too strong, Of course We're going crazy, No one in society listens to Logical sense anymore, This isn't imagination Do You know how many revolutions are Occurring across the globe right now? You must not ignore, Ignorance is so prevalent it Is an avalanche eroding off What should be a functioning society, Turn off and silence Your digital Distractions and explore what's happening, The slaves in Asia making Your clothes and phones, The excessive sugar, rock salt, and caffeine Satisfying ignorant stress dream cravings While busy mining away at every bone, Drowning in erased memories, I'm sure there will be a strong link between Alzheimer's disease and drinking coffee, So be prepared to sue, Because I know money is all that Matters to both sides of You, No matter how many times We Mention dementia You still Waste into another dimension With no retention of who You are, Or that the Nazi war machine was Fueled by methamphetamine While Our generation will fight On the backs of Caffeine in energy drinks, And ADHD stimulants prescribed like candy, We only live so We can die, Why fight for a government that doesn't care or support you? Become colourless and see how many colors are starting to bloom, How many flowers are deemed Weeds because We see too many of them? Slowly picking off those who see What Tyranny has grown in Our world, Their reward is war and to be cast from society, We are humans too, Stop trying to exterminate Us quietly, If I am suicided the night after I release this, You'll probably know why, I will never again take a life into My own hands, That's who I am, But to defend life from tyranny, My resolve will know no ends, I will not sit idly by while You continue the onslaught of innocence, The horns of God will blare, And Your defiance and lust for power Will at last come to an end
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Rewind the clock two thousand years, Where are We? (hello?) Surrounded by an empire growing corrupt, But no one has the internet to connect How widespread control of every outlet, They are uninformed, Or maybe misinformed, Back to two thousand and Seventeen years since a point That is mysteriously made relevant, Though We are billions of years old, No one remembers yet, We are drawing closer to each other, Constant build up of arms and Bass like bombs dropping, Reflecting the unsustainable currents That compare little to trying Trying to make Those around You inspired to live Even though We are tired, Imagine how vibrant this world would Be if everyone was trying to live better, To want to live longer, To ensure that there is a tomorrow Waiting for their grandchildren, At this point even just their children are choking Under the toxic fogs accumulating here, How long before We exterminate planets on A regular basis? Just look around and find out, Spread knowledge like a cancer, These meticulously scripted events, My right to send propaganda at Your radio, Still You skip over my frequency Of propagating the idea to get on a Clearer plane of existing, This static is weak but I Hear a twitch along a fiber, It's still birthing the universe, Yet somehow We are within it, Don't You get what this is? We are all the same, Over centuries the elite Have domesticated every generation Of those they only deemed Worthy of supporting themselves, How selfish society has become, How uncaring under constant fear Our families are ready for mass Exodus to heaven above To save Us from Hell, But this is purgatory, This is the place where You Will decide if You ascend or Descend for eternity, Fusion or fission the Decision is Yours, God can't help for now Because He sees how Disgusting this world has grown, For the moment, This is Our own to solve whole, The floods will not give easy When they are consumed by fire, Enjoy water while You can, The arks We'll send to survive this terran, But can this barren planet stand The parasite of arrogance?
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Li(Ve(Fe)) 04:48
When We finally accept that this Earth is Our own to pass down To those beyond Our time, We will recognize the lies We've been told, There is still wisdom in growing old, Just wake up and see it, Don't eat, just breathe this air, Taste the pollution corrupting Your lungs, Suffocating the metallic symphonies In the back of Your ears, This shit is fucking killing Us Dear, Let's move from here, But it is everywhere We have gone to, The acidic clouds above are Thicker than quick and instant Biscuit mixes in microwave dishes And it's making Us sicker, Does that entice Your hunger? God above I'm so hungry for something Worthy of being called food, Think of the slaves dying here for You, Please have mercy and Help, Help Help, Me, Help, Help, Set Us free What must it take before The dams will break just, Help, Help, Help Me Help, Help, Help be Help Me by being Yourself, Let's stop creating this Hell, It is time to believe in Me like I believe in You, To help get us through will take everyone Of us to give up every luxury We have ever known, So We can enjoy enough life for every Soul You haven't met yet, Live Like You are life, Wholly You can never overcome this feeling, Wholly In the recesses of this universe We wait slowly, to become wholly aware Of Our body, I am a white blood cell who sees Cancer throughout every organ of this Cave But I cannot defeat this cancer alone But I cannot defeat this cancer alone But I cannot defeat this cancer alone Will You join Me?
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Rigin Tipro 07:03
We climb the walls of a cemetery, To waste into a grave together, To live forever, Waiting in rot and maggots, Take down the dirt fill Our throats, Every word You wrote is just a lie, Every single chance You've given Me With someone else was not mine to Own, I imagine You only give what You take, Yet You take so much more of other people, You are the worst in evil, I swear it to be true, Every person who meets You Will know this is about You, I swear it will haunt You Like a mark on Your forehead, I'll name You kaine instead Of what You really are, A cancerous tumor that's making Tar drip from everything People around truly love, And You want to die, I think it might be time to oblige Yourself to another escape from these planes, You are the one letting Yourself Bet against waking torment, Every chance You get, Squandered away potential, Always You let it go, Let go of what is real Because if it wasn't real, Would I fight for it? Would it fight for Me? Should I not care at all Or should I give into the pain of sobriety, I know what You are, I've seen you waste away, Pressure the mirror to change, I see a reflection of three, You, Me, and the neutral party Dividing beside Us, We are never truly touching wholly because To touch wholly would be fusion and I refuse You, I'll see a resemblance, We are two different people in a cell, I know You are evil, So subjectively what does that make me? I Am as evil as You I know
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OPIN 07:33
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With Our backs against the Wall of time again, I'll never turn the page to find out How life ends for You, But God I loved You, I love You, In every passing dream I Could not remember the color Of Your hair, I would always meet someone else, But there You were waiting to kill Yourself, I bought into it, You sold Me so Well, I dreamt the face of My new life, And it devours Me to smile without You, But You were the key Catalyst To helping close this loop so thank You
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I am the one that fades away Into the night sky, I don't even know why You Are the one who comes around A'knocking on My window at three A.M. The door is open, You know I am awake, Thinking of where You are And who You're with, What are We, This nightmare extends into every Breathe I take for You and I'm done, I've felt the rest of what there is left To experience with You So please excuse the mess I've left behind, It isn't clean it isn't pretty, The purest emotion You've ever Tried to know caused to mirror To look so pretty to You, But it is faded, Inside the truth is rotted You, From the highlights over Low tides We swim under, It's finally making it's way Out of Your mouth and Into my ears, I understand who You're coming from, I understand the fear You feel, Cus' I feel it too, What don't You get? We are the same, We were two and two, We were never through, We gravitated toward the Insides of each other, Nothing more, We were nothing more than Flesh and Bone, The skin rattles slowly but still We know this isn't holy, You're never wholly there for me, And Who are You now dearest Son? And Where are You now? "My fear is gone" The truth is You are one in Me, One in the same, The truth We want is to Want to be, Fall into a watery grave again, Just embrace the waves again, As You sink the bubbles fade Above Your head, A smile on Your face, I know it wasn't real, But i chose to believe in you again Because I loved you dearest so We are the same you and I We were the ones who fade away in to the night
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Early morning champagne Hidden under Your veins, Return, Mother, Father, Your brother stare, "I am fine, please let Me in" Unaware of the blood on Your hands And the body in the foreground, You collide Up the stairs, All four of You almost never even cared, A witness testified against You, And all It had done was show that Every bruise was caused by Yourself I just hope to one day know if I am Writing this about You or Myself, But I have found solace in patiently Waiting to get what what I want to go My way, In conclusion of Our marriage of each other, The last lines of this chapter, I will always remember Her, A beautiful actress, You are the one to tell Her that I love Her, But I see clearly Your source of lusted Wiccan power and I am Unafraid to love anyone that I must meet
29.
Surrounded by a thousand crowded people, You stand out so clearly, I need to reevaluate priorities, To force a reason out of bed, Depressions sweetly trembling beneath Me, Help Me Jokingly a cuck while You were Secretly fucking life Up the whole time, Isn't it funny, Why aren't You laughing now? If Your family listens in I pray they realize who their daughter is, This travesty We both wrote, Unable to bind a library large enough To contain enough detail to explain the suffering You've put So many people through, It's Your turn to join us, Choose to ignore this and Your mind will divorce You for good, I'm begging You to hold on, To ask You to stay here a little while longer, Please learn to open Your mind, Learn to love Your child in Your heart and I Know You Will someday realize how selfishly You lived your life, For them, Not for me, Till then here is a letter to A friend I once knew in rehab, I wrote You my sinners log, I'd love to get back to You and read it, But I can't see You anymore But out by the fire pit, With a smile on My zipper, I knew I had to be the one to burn Away what remnants were left of what I thought Our life was, And what it truly had become, To have lost every sense of even apathy, We know We belong here, If I could pacify the time in between Schizophrenic lies I would, As for second chances girl, This is the fifth or sixth occurrence This has fucking happened, How many times do You need to deny it? But I read shadows like they are glowing, Still no one else is stopping, They choose to ignore it, I've been to the other side of Hell, Now I am Awake, I will redeem Your life, I will be the one to sacrifice Myself, To carry You in this cave, It is dark We build torches, I am the one to behold Your body, I am the one who pushes life, From beneath these stagnant lights, Heading south, I transport Her in time and space, To what You expected to see out of rehab, I promised You change, I was the same and I knew, In time We grew apart Like grapes from the ground We distanced Ourselves towards our son, But caught up on weeds You Twisted and withered away Into the dirt where You lay, An ambulance comes quickly, The driver, ninety miles an hour, Down the highway, The sirens are blaring, Your heartbeat is racing, The sirens are tearing apart, Environmental silence, No one expects You to survive, In the ICU You wait to give Your life To any man to come to Your hospital bed, I should've known I wasn't one of them, Then again I had My own bed to attend to, You ask where I was but in the psych ward I wait beside You, You want to die hand and hand with Me, But a thousand miles apart, Know that in every spark I will stand for You, In every high I will wait and hide To be there for You, I truly care I will be the one to bear Your coffin, Will You be the one to bear mine?

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One Man's Journey Through Hell to Reclaim His Soul.

Released in 2017, on July 4th to celebrate the declaration of independence, of self, of soul, and of country.


"Of Amber Skies and Of Emerald Oceans" could refer to a place or scene where the sky is a warm, golden color (like amber) and the oceans are a vibrant green color (like emerald). It could also be used to describe a dreamy, idyllic setting where nature is at its most beautiful and serene. This phrase could also be used to describe a moment in time or a specific place where the sky and ocean are especially striking or memorable.

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released July 4, 2017

Jacob Xavier Harding - Vocals, Guitar, Drums, Recording,

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