As my shells fall from me Trying to regain the past And I let my words grow yet I don't know if I have no voice To get me through And I saw my brain down Hold me down in time I will remember you As I remember Everything inside my bones I never wanna know why I had nothing left to hide deep inside of my bones Deep inside of my bones It's on we hope that One day I won't Have to find any struggle or strife In my legs In my legs wait for me To run once again

Forget the obligations to the outside world Deep inside of your heart there is only one In the mirror you say you love yourself And in front of everybody else It seems like they know The lie that you tell yourself in the morning But you don't know That they smile in the reflection of your ears You feel what they had said about you But you don't hear them At all In front of your face There is someone sinking into a black hole And you can't rescue them Not this time I won't die for anybody else Not again I can't survive my own sorrow My own sorrow is not theirs to own I want to feel everything Except for my sorrow It haunts me in the back of my throat I find a way to tell them everything But it has to go slow At night time I feel like I will lose her But she's probably not mine to own So what does it matter to try Deep on her skin I see her scars are shallow But they are as deep as mine We both feel We can't feel So what should we say to someone Who only lives in their apathy We want to say to them It will be okay The moment outside of this pain It terrifies our Being alive Not a chore So much more than we want to realize There is no way to predict What will be said What will be heard What will be miscommunicated once we are ears our fears Our fears They never fast themselves Pray to god to save them To save us from ourselves What do we fear When there is no one else to guide our hands What do I want In a world that is infinite For what we need to save Is not what we want to have We all misunderstand each other And we want to find out why The pain in our throats Is trapped inside of our words We have no words To tell you what it means To be lost inside of this This darkness we call our home It is our home All I want is for to hear these words To know that I feel just the same The pain in my heart it aches for you In every word you say to me I have no way to communicate to your face The sorrow deep in my heart But there is always tomorrow It's not what you need to hear But I hope you hear it soon I fear it I fear the time left with you All I want is to find myself lost inside of somebody else I had to know And I don't know what the fuck I am doing The coward deep inside of me Wants to find himself To set free I am the master of myself I am the only one who controls me I pray to god to send someone else Before I collapse into Collapse into my mind's words My own words I don't know what I fear God help me I love her She is so perfect I don't know what to do But I know her heart is suffering So is mine Neither of us turn to anything at all Maybe we sit down Listen to each other Hope again Listen Talk about what you want to be What you want to find inside of yourself I only want to find out What you are going through in every moment Take apart the things that you hold Maybe we can instruct us Maybe we can instruct every part of ourselves Why are we addicted to the pain Why can't we escape Maybe we don't hear enough about each other To know why we can't feel I have to say these words to you What the fuck is wrong with me I fear every word out of my mouth I fear it all that you might understand You might know who I am I don't know if can I let anyone else in To share my sorrow

I open up a doorway Trying to find my words My thoughts Deep ink Dark nights I don't know when to stop Finding my own voice Inside my walls There is only time Do you change everything Inside of our world Time drifts away And I don't know why They decide my bones Is dying Wait to find Myself Myself with which in mind Find our words Pretend we're in the future And the past Just in the same breathe I don't know why It is so And I don't ever listen to you Anything at all I don't know where to find Myself

I've been lookin' in the dark Waiting for you In the light You told me stay here or go I've been lookin' for the remnants in my chest Every part of the fragment you Told me was bouncin' out my walls You told me I was leakin' out of my mind You told me to great control And I've been lookin' into my mind Hopin' I surpoint Not that It was your eyes And I've been building up inside of my dreams For so Long my fear is starting to get in And every breathe in and out is okay And every conversation out on my lungs is no longer A feel of my pain anymore Where is the pain anymore I don't know And I don't know what I've been running from this whole time My throat If you ever recognize me Yeah eh eeeh If you ever recognize the tongue in my throat As I slowly disappear As I slowly disappear I've been lookin' to the sky at times With no hope or any fear And I've been running out of my mind For such a long time I don't know I do not know I swear I do not know Unless I'm told

The fear in the first notes The fear that they'll collapse underneath the fear in your throat There is no way out when the tunnels collapse We made sure of it We made sure that you never survive yourself The sorrow in your heart isn't yours I dream the same nightmares day in and day out You are always there for me You terrify me, yet you keep me safe I fear the words out of my mouth When I'm terrified I'm seeing your reaction on your face Disguised is all I've ever known So it'll take some time to rearrange myself Slowly but surely I fade away into the night sky With only myself I pray for someone like you To change my sorrow But what a fuckin' shame to know That I am lost Deep in my scars With no one to save me from my reasoning Except for myself Would I ever exchange my words for somebody else's I dream of a meadow with only the wind It takes on the voices and they all descend Into a jar I take it with me and carry it like a scar Listen to them I pray that they'll answer The words I scream to them But they never listen Maybe my words don't mean enough to them Maybe I'm a coward for never trying to find myself Or maybe I am the man I dreampt I would be Never thought I would embrace the light But the death of you took it's sweet time To register on my mind And now I'm free from you I'm free from the memories of the past You told me I would never forget I forgot you Inside of our words You never occurred to me And yet I mention you here And yet I find your grave so barren I never visit and now it's so cold The wind on your head doesn't explain your story What a shame you hadn't found any part of yourself In the storm you lost yourself in Maybe I am longing for some reason To reach out and see how your story ends I truly think that I don't care And that these words are because I don't have anything left to say I stumble upon my fingers I stumble upon my fingers As I struggle to keep up The pain is growing stronger every time I strum Yet still I go into The cave I lit up for you I hope to guide you out one day But you are blind to the signaling You don't know anything about anything Anything at all What you know Is a lie You tell yourself every single day that you want to die What kind of life is that Do you know yourself at all Do you pray to a god that doesn't care for you at all

If a boy asked how to be a man Would you reveal the secrets of the universe to him If he asks what's in your hands Would you reach out to save him I think not I don't think very highly of you You are not my friend anymore You left me to defend myself From the demons from within my heart So I cannot forgive you So I cannot forgive you Of your transgressions against a mortal son You are lost in Now it's time to rebuild Time to rebuild what you destroyed Not what you expected from a bastard Expected me to fail But I'll never die I'll never die Until I'm done here So much to do So much to see So many people to meet I've just remembered my name You and me are the same On the way out Into the position Needed to be freed by a successor Who will succeed the crown?

Your mind crumbles and it breaks in psychosis You are under another spell What do you smell when you're dead Do you even feel at all Do you ever care enough to try return To where you came from Is there a second chance to escape From your tormented eyes Every time I close my eyes I see you stare at me I'm afraid of what that means Trapped underground I hear what a sound Vibrates It wakes me up And I dig my way out again I have only one purpose here To get out of here The darkness that came before Is where we return to Will I ever return to your mind Or will I just float away Inside and never remember you Should I ever care enough to wake up Or should I just crawl into you Should I just give up For you Everyday I remember what it means to be alive And I'm okay Every glance in the mirror I just want to shatter Every thing I call a face I drown my sorrows To never embrace My goal line to never make it to tomorrow I had nothing I had something trying to destroy myself It was myself And it just terrifies every fiber of my being To be alive at all I'm okay For the moment I will rebuild Everything I love to hate I will get much higher That I never turn away From what it means to be a sinner The same Love yourself Never change Always change Never embrace the same idea twice Remember nothing if it Takes your mind